The unfixable bridge.

Hey guys! Im back. Sorry i havent written in a while. The holidays really had me busy from cooking to cleaning and all sorts of fun stuff! I was gonna do my next blog challenge but today I'm not. I'm going to be talking about something else today.

Well yesterday i lost my Grandfather Bobby. He was 69 years old. He wasn't the greatest person ever and he didn't really do any great things in his life either. He wasn't your average person if you get what I'm saying but everyone loved him for some strange reason ill never know. I mean for some reason i loved him too. I think it was because he did joke with you and he did love sports. I love sports as well. So i guess we had certain things in common. He wasn't one to listen to your problems most of the time but he did listen to mine. I could talk to him about anything and he would listen. He wouldn't judge me or turn me away, he would just listen. And that's what i loved about him. He was a good listener. We shared alot of good memories together. On that note i have to get something off my chest about someone who was close to me. I call it The Unfixable bridge.

Well today i went with my mother, uncle, and other uncle to the funeral home to discuss some information about the graveside service and things like that. Well, my uncle David and i got into it. He mentioned to my mom that he wanted to do what they had discussed if my Grandfather had life insurance. He said he wanted to get my Grandmother a headstone. I didn't have any problem with that but that the fact that we would be wasting the money because my Grandfather Ron was going to be getting a joint headstone. Those are the headstone where there are two spaces for names because my grandpa Ron wants my grandma to be buried with him when he dies. Well i was trying to explain that to my Uncle and he flipped. He ended up saying really hurtful things to me for no reason and said hurtful things about my Grandpa Ron. I want to know why do people act like that. Why are there so many hateful people in this world like him. I mean he doesn't care about my family, he doesn't come around. He didn't come around my Grandpa Bobby when he was alive. So why is he here now? Why do people do that to their families? Do they know how much they hurt their family when they say and do things like that? He claims hes a christian and he loves God. But if you actually love God then you wouldn't act that way and do those things to your family. Even if things in the past wasn't all peachy. God tells us to forgive. I know for a fact that I'm no Holy Roller and i do things that I'm not proud of on occasion but I do love God and i do ask for forgiveness all the time. We are not ones to judge others. I'm not judging anybody i just want to know why he did his family this way. And why people treat their families this way. I tried to get close to him, i did. He wouldn't let me. I always tried to get close to him and he always pushed me away. I always wanted us to have a relationship like me and my Uncle Steve. But that never happened. I guess i just wasn't the niece he was expecting. I guess i wasn't good enough for him to be close to. I thought for sure that he and i would be close after the death of my Uncle Steve but it never happened. My uncle Steve and him were just to different people i guess. His whole family I'm not close to. His whole family has nothing to do with me and my side of the family. Its really sad. I guess we aren't cut out to be his family. We're just not good enough for his family. But you know, its all good. God is seeing how he is acting and treating his family. God will take care of it! My uncle has burnt his bridge with me and it will no longer be fixable. I cant have someone like that in my life. I forgive him for what he has done and things he has said, but i will never forget. I will not be surrounded by someone with that kind of attitude and negativity. Its not good. That is merely the Devil and i don't want to have anything to do with the Devil.

What i want you to take from my blog today is please keep your family close. Don't push your family away. You will always need your family no matter what. They may be mean, hateful or what have you. They may not be the family that you always wanted but please keep them close. Never take your family for granted. Don't act like your better than your family because that attitude will get you know where. Once you act like that you'll burn bridges that you wished you still had with people that at one time loved you. At the end of the day God is the one who judges.

"Never forget where you came from"<3