It's been a while...

 It's been A while...

     Hey to whoever is reading this right now. It's been 4 years since I have blogged. Crazy, right? I know! It took me getting a new laptop for me to realize, Erin you don't blog anymore. Then it led me to see the last time I have blogged, which has been Jan 2019! Anyways, enough about that. Let's update the blog, shall we?

    First COVID. That was an interesting year if I do say so myself. 2020 was a very, very interesting year. I learned so much about myself, other people, strangers, children, my family, and my few friends. I learned that your job should not be your life. I learned that my profession, my passion, my calling is exactly what I should be doing and that's why I am doing it! I learned so much about faith, God, and Jesus. Things happen for a reason that we can't understand nor fathom. Lastly, I learned that family is the most important people in your life. During COVID I did manage to start a healthy journey. I discovered the Noom App! This App is nothing like I have ever seen before. Noom goes into the Psychology aspect of why we eat the way we do and where does it come from. Then shortly after that I met this really nice friend Vay. She introduced me to Keto and intermittent fasting. Those 2 were a game changer for me. I quickly found out that the Ol' saying, "You are what you eat" was an actual true statement. Okay, before you come for me here me out. Any healthy journey is mostly 80-20. 80% what you eat and 20% exercise. I am not even joking. Like everything though there is a beginning and there is an ending. Our friendship ended but I managed to continue on that Keto journey. I felt great. Along the way though I lost my job at Gloria Dei and found one at another private church named C. That was a great job! It ended sadly and traumatic however it's okay. That job allowed for me to get out of my comfort zone and think outside the box. For once, I was in charge, I was the teacher. Those babies helped me to see that if they can adapt then I can adapt too! Virtual Learning... Gee where do I begin with that cringe worthy statement. That was quite an experience. Let me tell you though, those babies did it! I am still so proud of them! 

    Next, HOME SWEET HOME! Yes, we are homeowners! Among the chaos we became homeowners. During our Anniversary month which made it extra special! Wow, the day we became homeowners there was a stack of papers so thick that we had to sign that I didn't think it was ever going to end! LOL! Like I felt like Sarah and Frosty on Frosty the Snowman when they were at the ticket booth and the man at the booth takes out that long list of train departures but none on there were where they needed to go! Anyways, if you see/seen the movie, you will understand the connection. That ended up being the reason why I lost my job, but I have a home! I'm a homeowner! That was the choice I made. My family and my home over my job. God is good and I stand on that! I now have the sudden urge to paint all the rooms and decorate even more! You know all the crazy things that homeowners want to do after they purchase their house. To be able to say that it's my house feels so good. 

    I FOUND A JOB! Thank God for finding that job for me! Not because of money even though that helps however that is not the main reason for being grateful. It's the people. The atmosphere. My teacher is amazing! She's so honest and truthful. If we have any disagreement or we don't like certain things, we deal with it together. Having an open and honest relationship with your coworker that you spend a lot of time with that is important. We communicate with each other all the time and we let each other know what's going on and what is happening. This job has its challenges, but it is nothing compared to the others. This job is the best job I've had thus far! Being able to switch off and on with my teacher with the kids is such a nice bonus that way no one is getting burnt out and the kids never get used to one or the other. we are equal in that room, and we all work together. she focuses a lot on being calm and using our words to express what is wrong or how we feel. She also focuses on the children being independent and self-sufficient which is much needed when going into kindergarten and all the other grades in school. This job also has paid days off like for holidays and what have you. I also have the summer off which is SOOO nice!! I'm so grateful! Something so simply means so much!

    Lastly, I'm learning to manage my Mental Health. In 2020, I realized that I needed help. I finally went to therapy. Therapy is amazing and I thank God every day that people like therapists exist. I learned through therapy that Childhood Trauma is real and being triggered is a real thing but is needed to heal the pain that was endured during childhood. This journey has been very insightful. My relationship with Jesus has only gotten deeper and stronger. As I sit here as a 35-year-old I cannot believe the things I have gone through and still able to function is amazing to me. I just thank God and Jesus for that. For putting people in my life to be there when I need to talk and for them to be there to talk to. I am just so grateful and blessed to have my people, my family, and my faith! God is good! I read somewhere that religion shames you for having dirty feet, but Jesus washes your feet. It doesn't matter what you've done it doesn't matter where you been what matters is that you believe in Jesus you believe he died for your sins and that you live your life for him. Loving people, being kind to people, helping people, and telling people about Jesus is how you live your life for him! Thats it! What a blessing!