30 Day Blog Challenge!

Day 28- Something that you miss.

Well, another serious blog challenge again today! Lets hope i can keep it together without crying! LOL! And i apologize in advance because there is more than one thing that i miss so I'm talking about them all! :D 

1. Quality time with my Grandma. I miss that a lot. We did everything together. We went shopping, we watched movies together, took naps together, play games together, cooked together, etc. You name it we did it! Looking back on it i really took those times for granted. I guess i thought she would be with me forever. Looks like i was wrong. Its funny how life works out in ways you never thought it would. The saying is true that you don't know what you got until its gone. She said that was gonna happen too! She told me one day when we were arguing, she said, You know what one day your gonna need me and I'm not gonna be there and your gonna miss me and wish i was here, but it'll be too late because ill be gone! So crazy how she knew that! I guess she knew me so well! 

2. Talks with my Grandma. Boy do i miss those. I could talk to her about anything. I remember like it was yesterday when she got me and my first boyfriend together. I hate bringing it up but it was just cool how my Grandma did it. We were talking one day and she said, what do you think about Darius. I say well hes pretty cool friend, blah blah blah. She says, well i think he likes you. I say ewww really.. Omg i hope not! hes ugly and fat and short and hes my friend! She says, Erin Nicole, don't talk about people like that. I taught you better than to bad mouth people. You don't want anyone to say that about you, so don't say things like that about them. That boy is a nice boy. Who cares if hes short, ugly, or fat. If he treats you right that's all that matters. I say but nanny hes not my color and if we go out bubba Steve, papa, and papa bobby are gonna get mad at me. She says, Honey don't you worry about them and don't worry about his color. That's another thing you don't worry about. Just because hes a different color than you doesn't mean that you cant date each other. Color doesn't matter and what people say don't matter either! She also said, Erin Nicole in life don't you ever judge a book by its cover before you open it and read what its about! I will never forget that day for the rest of my life. That day paved the way to the day that i met the love of my life! The day i met him I didn't judge him. I met him, got to know him, became friends with him, and in the end fell in love with him! If it wasn't for my Grandma, i don't think that day or any other day after that would have ever happened. 

3. Grandma and Great Grandma's cookin'. OMG! Totally took that for granted too! Geez, their cooking was something else! I loved it! I guess what made their cooking so good was that they cooked from the heart! I inherited some of that. They took pride in their cooking and i do too! But my cooking is no where near as good as theirs! Their cooking was so good it would make you wanna slap your momma! haha!

4. Sunday's at Great Grandma's! I couldn't wait for Sunday's! That meant quality time and eating time at great grandmas house! Gosh that was some good eating! It was lunch and dinner combined at one setting! Homemade from scratch Chicken n dumplings with homemade from scratch biscuits! Next time smith field ham with cabbage, homemade from scratch mashed potatoes, and biscuits! Another Sunday Fried Chicken, mashed potatoes, and corn and biscuits! YUMMYY!! Those were the good ol' days!

5. My family being close. I mentioned it in another blog i did a while back but i cant help it i really do miss my family being close. From Sundays at Great Grandmas to sleepovers with my cousin. My whole family was always together! We always had cookouts at great grandmas too! Every summer, every holiday! Memorial day, Labor day, 4th of July, you name it we were celebrating! LOL! We always got together for every ones birthday too! We were always together! I guess i even took that for granted too! I guess I thought even if something were to happen to my Great Grandma or Grandma my family would still stay together and be together! But like i said life has a funny way of turning out the way you didn't expect! I guess everything was suppose to happen the way it all did. Things happen for a reason! 

So, there you have it! Just a few things that i miss! I cant bring those things back but i can sure hold on to those memories and tell my children someday about those memories and about their Great Grandma and their Great Great Grandma!

Until next time, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oiS8YokFzeY a clip from the movie beaches and the song that was dedicated to my Grandma a long time ago! <3

30 Day Blog Challenge!

Day 27- A problem you have or have had in the past.

Hello! So today has been a very icky day. First off it was really really cold considering this past Saturday was in the 70's. Then it started raining which is horrible. Cold and wet doesn't do my bones any good. LOL! Then finally the old s word rolled in the mix. Yes SNOW! I couldn't believe my eyes today. Like hello we are in spring, it should not be snowing! Seriously, "GO home Mother nature, you're drunk!" haha! Anyways, back to the challenge! Day 27 wants me to write about a problem that i have or have had in the past. Hmmm, this challenge is gonna be a serious one! ...and I'm off!

So, A problem that i have had in the past would be wearing my heart on my sleeve when it came to my friends. It was almost as if i was in a serious relationship with a guy or something. I always seemed to care a lot about my friends and worried about my friends. So i guess you could say i was rather like the mother hen with my friends. *Take note* it does not work out! It doesn't work because my friends already have parents that tell them what to do and blah blah blah. So for your friend to do the same exact thing, is not cool. I see that now. But in my defense what do you expect from a friend who is like 3-4 maybe even 5 years older than you?!? They always asked me my opinion and then suddenly get mad when i answered. They always talked about me behind my back and then smile in my face like we were best friends. I would confront them and they would suddenly flip the situation and say I'm being a b****. So i would let it go. It was like i was in a abusive relationship but instead of a guy or boy it was with my friends. 

For me always caring and always worrying about my friends was something i felt i had to do. I felt like i needed to be there for them. I didn't know at the time i was actually pushing my friends away rather than pushing them closer. I mean I'm a very honest person. If you ask me what i think about something I'm going to tell you. I'm very blunt and straight forward. That trait too is hard when you've got friends. but again in my defense in my opinion i would rather have someone tell me the truth to my face then lie and stab me in the back. I don't know that's just how i feel. I'm that friend that will tell you if your making a mistake if you ask me, I'm that friend that is going to tell you that outfit makes you look fat, I'm that friend that is going to tell you that you made a fool of yourself when we went out drinking, I'm that friend that is going to tell you that guy your with was just hugging and kissing some other girl, I'm that friend that is going to tell you that i love you even though you made those mistakes and that I'm here for you if you need me, I'm that friend that if you call me in the middle of the night and i have a vehicle i will come and get you now matter how far it is and then tell you what the hell were you thinking! I'm THAT friend! And i expect the same in return!

Ive gone through a lot of friends over the years. Most of them ended pretty badly, & some just kind floated away with the wind. I don't regret how the ones ended pretty badly because it was meant to happen. i was pretty heartbroken about it at first but after i started sitting down and actually running the whole friendship in my head, i suddenly didn't feel bad or heartbroken anymore. I finally seen what i was suppose to see all along i was just to blind and too young to know better. They are lessons learned in my life. "I cannot change the hands of time" like my momma always says but I can however move forward knowing that I am a stronger because i got through it! Loosing friends has made me a better person. I see what i was doing wrong and i saw what they were doing wrong. Ive made some changes but i haven't let what happened in the past bring me down either. I'm still the same old person i just made some finer adjustments! I know longer where my heart on my sleeve anymore. Its nicely tucked away. it comes out only if only those people are the right ones! Plus, billy has stolen my heart so it makes it kinda hard to wear on my sleeve! ;) haha!

So, even after everything i still ended up having a best friend. The others came and gone but she has stuck through it all. We've had our ups and downs, our arguments, our fights that we don't talk for like a couple of months, etc. But deep down she is still my best friend. She let me tell you has put up with ALOT of S*** from me. I have put up with ALOT of ish from her! I mean we are gonna bump heads a little bit because we are just alike. Crazy i know! But we are! Our attitude and anger is alot like! We get so mad at each other so fast, its like tornado! But i love it! I love everything about her! I know right now she is going to end up reading this and i want her to because i want her to know how much i care about her! How much i love her and i always will! She knows everything about me! My faults, my weaknesses, my strengths, what i love, what i hate, everything!!! I know right now she doesn't feel like i care about her or that our friendship doesn't mean anything but it does! I will always cherish our friendship because she is the only one who stuck by me when everything else bailed or f***** me over! Her name is Jess, Jessica Dibuono! In my heart and soul we will always and forever be best friends! 

So, there you have it! Day 27! I feel rather relieved to have done this blog! I feel like I've gotten a lot of my chest! it feels good! 

Until next time, 
"Walking with a friend in the dark, is better than walking alone in the light"-Helen Keller

30 Day Blog Challenge!

Day 26- If you had $1,000,000 to spend, how would you spend it?

Hey guys! So Day 26 if you had $1,000,000 to spend, how would you spend it? Well, this blog challenge is going to be quite interesting. That's a lot of money! Well here goes nothing!

So, right now I'm pretending to have one million dollars and this is how i would spend it!

1. I would buy a vehicle for billy and I. That would the very first thing i would do when i got the money! lol!

2. I would officially buy our house that we are in instead of waiting 3 years! Who would wait 3 years when you got a million dollars?!? :D

3. I would buy my mother in law a vehicle and a house! This woman has done a lot for me so i wouldn't hesitate to buy those things for her!

4. Do all kinds of home repairs to my house! Like 2 storm doors for the back door and the front door. Paint for all the rooms in the house and the closed in porch on the front. Extend the deck, redo the garage, etc!

5. Get Baby girl a brother or sister! :)

6. Get a NEW Fire pit!

7. Go on a vacation for like month! ha ha! LOL!

8. Give to the wounded warrior project, the SPCA, the Food bank, the Police Aid, and St. Jude's Hospital.

9. Buy either a vacation home or time share somewhere!

10. buy the MEGA TICKET! and mayhem tickets and all other tickets to events that billy and i want to go to! :)

11. finally whatever is left over will go in to our savings account!

Well guys there you have it! That's how i would spend my million dollars! This blog was fun and kinda depressing because it just reminded me that we have a lot of things we want to do with not a lot of money to do it with! But oh well that's life! Well get there one day! We just have to be patient! :)

Until next time, "Money doesn't grow on trees" :D

30 Day Blog Challenge!

Day 25- Someone who fascinates you and why.

Hey guys sorry its been a while since I've written things just have been a little hectic in this household! LOL! First it was Valentines Day which i was treated to our favorite place to go eat and we came back home had some ice cream and just watched movies together! It was wonderful! Then next thing you know it was March! My Birthdayyyy! LOL! My birthday was awesome! Honey took me out to this really nice and fancy Italian Restaurant! It was amazing! I had such a wonderful time! Anyways, back to the main point of the blog. 30 Day Blog Challenge wants me to write about someone who fascinates me and why. WOW! Not really sure how to answer this one. I haven't really sat down and thought about who fascinates me! LOL! But i will try anything once! So here it goes!

Well  after a couple of days contemplating i finally found the person who fascinates me and why. It is Nancy Reagan! Some of you know her as the first lady. Since i was too young to know her as the first lady of the United States of America, i know her as a woman who was married to Ronald Reagan. This woman since i was a little girl intrigued me. There was always something about her that i just loved. When i became older in life i realized what it was. It was her personality. The way she carried herself. The way she interacted with people that she knew and didn't know. Reading about her just made me more fascinated! Nancy is the woman that all girls and women should look up for guidance, poise, strength, and independence because let me tell you she as it all and then some. This woman not only had all those amazing qualities but for real she even knew how to dress even before she was the first lady! This woman dressed and still dresses so modestly and classy! I love it! she really is a great role model for girls and women everywhere! 

Another reason Nancy fascinates me is her love for her husband. Her love for her husband was and is the strongest I've ever seen(except for my Grandma and Grandpas of course!) She stood behind him all the way until the very end. Through all the stress and chaos that presidency threw at them! They still managed to stay together and make their marriage work! Back when i was reading about her and doing research on her i came across a quote she had said a long time ago about her husband Ronnie! I will never forget it! Here it is: “ I've said it before and I’ll say it again: My life didn't really begin until I met Ronnie.” – Nancy Reagan. What a beautiful quote! When i read that quote for the first time it gave me goosebumps because i honestly without a doubt feel the same way about Billy! Its amazing! I will always remember that quote until the day i die! Definitely one of my Top quotes of all time! :)

This couple is one of my Top inspirational couples of all time! What they had together went over and beyond a marriage. They had a friendship! And you seen that every time they were together! Their love for one another was seen in their eyes and their smiles! All you had to do was just look at a picture of them and you could read that they were in love just by looking at that picture! That's the kind of love i wanted as a child growing up! And that's the kind of love and relationship i have! We know each other so well and Nancy and Ronnie had that same thing! Charlton Heston said "Their love was probably the greatest love affair in the history of the American Presidency.” And i honestly believe that! I mean no one has to sit around and justify their love because they already did that just by looking at the pictures. Here are some more of them! Take a look yourself! 

Beautiful pictures! Just beautiful! I mean don't get me wrong I'm sure they had their ups and downs and arguments and things like that! But what couple and doesn't?!? I mean things happen! I'm just here to let you know they got through it! And if their marriage can survive all the stress and day to day duties of being a president and first lady then by God all the marriages around the United States can survive anything! This couple I'm telling you is the couple to look up to! 

Isn't her inaugural gown Stunning!

Nancy Reagan Is one of my Top idols and inspirational people! I have always looked up to her as a child and i will continue to look up to her until the day i die! She is a remarkable, Strong, Intelligent woman that I've ever researched! Her life and legacy will always live on even after she is gone! My children will know this woman and what she stands for! My daughter will know this woman and i hope she sees what i see when she gets older because i want my daughter to not only look up to me but to look up to someone who is an extraordinary woman with grace and poise! 

Nancy Reagan even though you will never read this i just want you to know that i thank you! I thank you for the person you are and the woman you are! You have taught me so well in how to act, think, and carry myself! You're my role model and inspiration! Even in this picture you are still beautiful and absolutely stunning! You will always be my first lady in my book and in my heart! :) 
--So guys there you have it! There is my someone who fascinates me! The gorgeous Nancy Reagan! I hope that i informed you about her and her life! And i hope people see what i see when i read and look at her! If you don't, i just hope you leave my blog knowing that this woman was extraordinary! That is all!


Until next time, “Just being an eyewitness to the history that occurs around you daily is a rewarding, enlightening, at times even thrilling sensation.” – Nancy Reagan