Losing weight && eating healthy.. Worst words EVER! LOL!
Today, as I'm sitting here at the computer and the clock reads 12:08, i was thinking about what i was going to write about. I first thought, i don't have nothing to write about. Then i said, yes you do. Yesterday in my Edu 235 class(which happens to be a food and nutrition class) i realized that i need to start eating healthy again. I did last year in the summer and i felt awesome, amazing, and just really happy about myself. Now, right now, i feel like a tub of lard. I swear! I'm not even joking. I want to know though, why is it so hard for us to eat healthy? Is it because we're lazy and we "have a busy life that we need to cook meals that are easy and fast" or is it because with all honesty that healthy foods are WAY TOO EXPENSIVE? Actually healthy foods are quite expensive but in my opinion its worth the cost. Especially if its going be beneficial to you in the long run. Eating healthy is hard, like really hard. Especially if your totally use to eating junk food ALL OF THE TIME. With that said though, you honestly just have to take it a day at a time. But that's hard to remember considering you want to see results right then and there. LOL! I'm totally guilty of that last year when i started eating healthy and exercising.
Last year was sort of rough for me. I had finally gotten a normal check-up appointment with a doctor to see if i was still okay and everything was okay. The doctor told me something so scary i will never forget. She told me that i was on the boarder of being someone with high blood pressure. at the time, that was so scary to hear because you think that your healthy and that nothing is wrong you. So to hear that, i was terrified. But she reassured me that it was okay and that i was going to be alright i just had to start watching what i ate. Especially foods with high sodium or even foods with sodium period. Well, that's when i started exercising everyday and watching what i ate everyday. Looking back at last year i was actually very happy and pleased with myself. I loved myself. I felt better inside and out. I miss that. Like really miss that. But i just honestly don't have any motivation to want to work out or anything. I know that's bad. :( but i cant help it. I guess if i had someone to work out with, it would be okay but everyone that i know is busy and has a life and has to work. I, however, don't work. So wanting to exercise should be something that i would enjoy doing. LOL! but its not. When i feel like this, i in all honesty, feel a total and complete failure. I feel like its because I'm so fat that i don't want to help myself be better. I start getting in this depressed moods and cant really get out of them. Losing weight though, means everything to me like college and graduating college means to me. I don't know why but it does. What do i do? Do i continue on the path that I'm going or do i sit down and have a conversation with myself and tell myself what I'm doing to do and i better do it like or not! LOL! (i really cannot believe i just said that statement)
Over the next couple of months, i think i will start changing my lifestyle and start being a new healthier person and a more non-lazy person. I guess maybe i should blame in on the weather and the fact that its still winter and of course the holidays! LOL! Excuses, excuses, excuses, i know! I tried! LOL! I guess maybe ill let my blog help me out and set myself some goals for myself and just take each one, one day at time. I need to remember that Rome was not built in a day. It took time to built something so marvelous and beautiful. :) I guess in the end though, regardless of whats going on in my life and what i look like, i should still love myself for who i am. I was born this way baby! --Yes i just stole Lady Gaga's line! LOL! I totally had to take that though, it fit perfect! :D
As i wrap this up, what i learned today in class and right now is, its okay that your not perfect and like everyone else, that is what makes you unique. To love yourself for who you are is what matters most at the end of the day because who is going to love you if you don't love yourself? (short blog this time. ill make up for it on my next blog) :)
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