Day 2- where you'd like to be in 10 years.
So, Day 2 has approached. Not sure how I feel about it. I haven't really sat down and thought about where id like to be in 10 years since I was a teenager. So this one is going to be a little tricky for me to write about. Plus, I am already living in my own home. I already have the love of my life. And I already have child. She may be a dog but she is still my child. So, I pretty much have everything I could possibly want. Well, I guess not everything. So here it goes...
Where id like to be in 10 years? Let me see... The year will be 2023. Id like to be in my same home, with the same man, and with the same dog. I hope to be married in 10 years. I hope Billy and I finally tie the knot together in front of our family and friends that love us, FINALLY! LOL! I hope to be a wife in 10 years. One of my dreams I've been dreaming about for a while now. Being married and being a wife is something I've looked forward to for quite sometime. Just the thought of my wedding just gives me butterflies. Yeah, I'm a little kid a heart. Nothings gonna change that. I hope Billy and I finally are able to afford the wedding of our dreams. Then after our wedding I hope to go on our honeymoon. I don't wanna wait like most people that I know. I want take my honeymoon like tradition, right after the wedding. Our dream honeymoon is going to Disneyland. We both have never been and have always wanted to go. So, I guess you can say we both are kids at heart! I guess that's why we are so good together.
Id like to be a college graduate in 10 years. I hope have finished one of my life stepping stones that I never got to finish in high school. Walking across the stage to receive my college degree means everything to me. Its another dream of mine that I will eventually achieve. I want to be done with school and start working in the profession that I chose. Working at a daycare with children is my calling. Its something that I have always wanted to do. I had to figure it out the hard way but I'm glad I finally did. I always thought that when chasing your dream job you just had to think practical. Like money and financial practical. Billy should me that its okay that my dream job I wont be making a lot of money because its something that I love doing. Doing something that I love is worth more than any job that pays a lot of money. Glad he taught me that.
Id like to be a soon to be mom or a mom in 10 years. This topic, "Motherhood" I've dodged quite a bit. I've gone back and forth. Saying I wanted children, to I don't want children, to I don't know. Yeah I'm quite flippy floppy when it comes to being a mom. I guess because I'm scared. That's the root of the problem. I'm scared and terrified of being a mom. The things that have happened to me I really don't want that for my children. I'm scared I'm going to treat my children like I was treated. I really don't want that either for my children. I honestly keep thinking I'm not going to be a good mom. I'm really scared that they are going to end up like me. I mean don't get me wrong I'm a good person and all but I wasn't always like that. I don't think I could handle who I was with my children. I don't think I could handle my children drinking and smoking at a young age. I also don't think this world is a good place to raise children. Right now there is so much violence. Its so not safe for children. I really don't think I could handle things like this if I had children. Honestly though I have done a lot of thinking if you couldn't tell. I finally just let all of this go a couple of months. I thought if I have kids I have kids and if I don't, I don't. If I do, its okay because God and my loved ones are going to be there for me. I wont be by myself if I do have children. Yes having and raising children is scary, but everything in life is scary. Growing up, moving out, going to school, finding your true love, loosing loved ones, believing in something you cant see, buying a house, getting married, etc. All of these are scary but we do them because they are dreams that we have and want them to come true. So, when it comes down to it, I want children. I hope in 10 years or so, I hope to become a soon to be mom or a mom.
Finally, I'd like to be a little thinner in 10 years. I hope by then I get this laziness together and start exercising. I want to be thinner than what I am now. I even know what I need to do I'm just to damn lazy to do it. So, I'm hoping in 10 years this laziness has left and that I'm thinner by 2023. What a goal right? To be thin by 2023. That's a long way away. But you have to start somewhere right? I'm thinking the first of the year I'm going to get serious with exercising. I want to be healthy and I want to have a healthy body. I'm tired of being big. I'm tired of looking in the mirror and seeing my body. I mean don't get me wrong I love myself. I love who I am, I just want to be a healthier me from the inside out. So I don't want to loose drastic weight. I don't want to be super skinny. I just want to be healthy. And I will. I will get there. So in 10 years I can look back and say, I met my goal! :)
So, that is where I want to be in 10 years. I thought at first, I was going to have a hard time with this. When I started it, my thoughts just came out without much trouble. To me, these are goals. I will have these goals accomplished eventually. I just have to be patient!
Until next time, keep your dreams unlimited! :)
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