30 Day Blog Challenge!

Day 28- Something that you miss.

Well, another serious blog challenge again today! Lets hope i can keep it together without crying! LOL! And i apologize in advance because there is more than one thing that i miss so I'm talking about them all! :D 

1. Quality time with my Grandma. I miss that a lot. We did everything together. We went shopping, we watched movies together, took naps together, play games together, cooked together, etc. You name it we did it! Looking back on it i really took those times for granted. I guess i thought she would be with me forever. Looks like i was wrong. Its funny how life works out in ways you never thought it would. The saying is true that you don't know what you got until its gone. She said that was gonna happen too! She told me one day when we were arguing, she said, You know what one day your gonna need me and I'm not gonna be there and your gonna miss me and wish i was here, but it'll be too late because ill be gone! So crazy how she knew that! I guess she knew me so well! 

2. Talks with my Grandma. Boy do i miss those. I could talk to her about anything. I remember like it was yesterday when she got me and my first boyfriend together. I hate bringing it up but it was just cool how my Grandma did it. We were talking one day and she said, what do you think about Darius. I say well hes pretty cool friend, blah blah blah. She says, well i think he likes you. I say ewww really.. Omg i hope not! hes ugly and fat and short and hes my friend! She says, Erin Nicole, don't talk about people like that. I taught you better than to bad mouth people. You don't want anyone to say that about you, so don't say things like that about them. That boy is a nice boy. Who cares if hes short, ugly, or fat. If he treats you right that's all that matters. I say but nanny hes not my color and if we go out bubba Steve, papa, and papa bobby are gonna get mad at me. She says, Honey don't you worry about them and don't worry about his color. That's another thing you don't worry about. Just because hes a different color than you doesn't mean that you cant date each other. Color doesn't matter and what people say don't matter either! She also said, Erin Nicole in life don't you ever judge a book by its cover before you open it and read what its about! I will never forget that day for the rest of my life. That day paved the way to the day that i met the love of my life! The day i met him I didn't judge him. I met him, got to know him, became friends with him, and in the end fell in love with him! If it wasn't for my Grandma, i don't think that day or any other day after that would have ever happened. 

3. Grandma and Great Grandma's cookin'. OMG! Totally took that for granted too! Geez, their cooking was something else! I loved it! I guess what made their cooking so good was that they cooked from the heart! I inherited some of that. They took pride in their cooking and i do too! But my cooking is no where near as good as theirs! Their cooking was so good it would make you wanna slap your momma! haha!

4. Sunday's at Great Grandma's! I couldn't wait for Sunday's! That meant quality time and eating time at great grandmas house! Gosh that was some good eating! It was lunch and dinner combined at one setting! Homemade from scratch Chicken n dumplings with homemade from scratch biscuits! Next time smith field ham with cabbage, homemade from scratch mashed potatoes, and biscuits! Another Sunday Fried Chicken, mashed potatoes, and corn and biscuits! YUMMYY!! Those were the good ol' days!

5. My family being close. I mentioned it in another blog i did a while back but i cant help it i really do miss my family being close. From Sundays at Great Grandmas to sleepovers with my cousin. My whole family was always together! We always had cookouts at great grandmas too! Every summer, every holiday! Memorial day, Labor day, 4th of July, you name it we were celebrating! LOL! We always got together for every ones birthday too! We were always together! I guess i even took that for granted too! I guess I thought even if something were to happen to my Great Grandma or Grandma my family would still stay together and be together! But like i said life has a funny way of turning out the way you didn't expect! I guess everything was suppose to happen the way it all did. Things happen for a reason! 

So, there you have it! Just a few things that i miss! I cant bring those things back but i can sure hold on to those memories and tell my children someday about those memories and about their Great Grandma and their Great Great Grandma!

Until next time, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oiS8YokFzeY a clip from the movie beaches and the song that was dedicated to my Grandma a long time ago! <3

30 Day Blog Challenge!

Day 27- A problem you have or have had in the past.

Hello! So today has been a very icky day. First off it was really really cold considering this past Saturday was in the 70's. Then it started raining which is horrible. Cold and wet doesn't do my bones any good. LOL! Then finally the old s word rolled in the mix. Yes SNOW! I couldn't believe my eyes today. Like hello we are in spring, it should not be snowing! Seriously, "GO home Mother nature, you're drunk!" haha! Anyways, back to the challenge! Day 27 wants me to write about a problem that i have or have had in the past. Hmmm, this challenge is gonna be a serious one! ...and I'm off!

So, A problem that i have had in the past would be wearing my heart on my sleeve when it came to my friends. It was almost as if i was in a serious relationship with a guy or something. I always seemed to care a lot about my friends and worried about my friends. So i guess you could say i was rather like the mother hen with my friends. *Take note* it does not work out! It doesn't work because my friends already have parents that tell them what to do and blah blah blah. So for your friend to do the same exact thing, is not cool. I see that now. But in my defense what do you expect from a friend who is like 3-4 maybe even 5 years older than you?!? They always asked me my opinion and then suddenly get mad when i answered. They always talked about me behind my back and then smile in my face like we were best friends. I would confront them and they would suddenly flip the situation and say I'm being a b****. So i would let it go. It was like i was in a abusive relationship but instead of a guy or boy it was with my friends. 

For me always caring and always worrying about my friends was something i felt i had to do. I felt like i needed to be there for them. I didn't know at the time i was actually pushing my friends away rather than pushing them closer. I mean I'm a very honest person. If you ask me what i think about something I'm going to tell you. I'm very blunt and straight forward. That trait too is hard when you've got friends. but again in my defense in my opinion i would rather have someone tell me the truth to my face then lie and stab me in the back. I don't know that's just how i feel. I'm that friend that will tell you if your making a mistake if you ask me, I'm that friend that is going to tell you that outfit makes you look fat, I'm that friend that is going to tell you that you made a fool of yourself when we went out drinking, I'm that friend that is going to tell you that guy your with was just hugging and kissing some other girl, I'm that friend that is going to tell you that i love you even though you made those mistakes and that I'm here for you if you need me, I'm that friend that if you call me in the middle of the night and i have a vehicle i will come and get you now matter how far it is and then tell you what the hell were you thinking! I'm THAT friend! And i expect the same in return!

Ive gone through a lot of friends over the years. Most of them ended pretty badly, & some just kind floated away with the wind. I don't regret how the ones ended pretty badly because it was meant to happen. i was pretty heartbroken about it at first but after i started sitting down and actually running the whole friendship in my head, i suddenly didn't feel bad or heartbroken anymore. I finally seen what i was suppose to see all along i was just to blind and too young to know better. They are lessons learned in my life. "I cannot change the hands of time" like my momma always says but I can however move forward knowing that I am a stronger because i got through it! Loosing friends has made me a better person. I see what i was doing wrong and i saw what they were doing wrong. Ive made some changes but i haven't let what happened in the past bring me down either. I'm still the same old person i just made some finer adjustments! I know longer where my heart on my sleeve anymore. Its nicely tucked away. it comes out only if only those people are the right ones! Plus, billy has stolen my heart so it makes it kinda hard to wear on my sleeve! ;) haha!

So, even after everything i still ended up having a best friend. The others came and gone but she has stuck through it all. We've had our ups and downs, our arguments, our fights that we don't talk for like a couple of months, etc. But deep down she is still my best friend. She let me tell you has put up with ALOT of S*** from me. I have put up with ALOT of ish from her! I mean we are gonna bump heads a little bit because we are just alike. Crazy i know! But we are! Our attitude and anger is alot like! We get so mad at each other so fast, its like tornado! But i love it! I love everything about her! I know right now she is going to end up reading this and i want her to because i want her to know how much i care about her! How much i love her and i always will! She knows everything about me! My faults, my weaknesses, my strengths, what i love, what i hate, everything!!! I know right now she doesn't feel like i care about her or that our friendship doesn't mean anything but it does! I will always cherish our friendship because she is the only one who stuck by me when everything else bailed or f***** me over! Her name is Jess, Jessica Dibuono! In my heart and soul we will always and forever be best friends! 

So, there you have it! Day 27! I feel rather relieved to have done this blog! I feel like I've gotten a lot of my chest! it feels good! 

Until next time, 
"Walking with a friend in the dark, is better than walking alone in the light"-Helen Keller

30 Day Blog Challenge!

Day 26- If you had $1,000,000 to spend, how would you spend it?

Hey guys! So Day 26 if you had $1,000,000 to spend, how would you spend it? Well, this blog challenge is going to be quite interesting. That's a lot of money! Well here goes nothing!

So, right now I'm pretending to have one million dollars and this is how i would spend it!

1. I would buy a vehicle for billy and I. That would the very first thing i would do when i got the money! lol!

2. I would officially buy our house that we are in instead of waiting 3 years! Who would wait 3 years when you got a million dollars?!? :D

3. I would buy my mother in law a vehicle and a house! This woman has done a lot for me so i wouldn't hesitate to buy those things for her!

4. Do all kinds of home repairs to my house! Like 2 storm doors for the back door and the front door. Paint for all the rooms in the house and the closed in porch on the front. Extend the deck, redo the garage, etc!

5. Get Baby girl a brother or sister! :)

6. Get a NEW Fire pit!

7. Go on a vacation for like month! ha ha! LOL!

8. Give to the wounded warrior project, the SPCA, the Food bank, the Police Aid, and St. Jude's Hospital.

9. Buy either a vacation home or time share somewhere!

10. buy the MEGA TICKET! and mayhem tickets and all other tickets to events that billy and i want to go to! :)

11. finally whatever is left over will go in to our savings account!

Well guys there you have it! That's how i would spend my million dollars! This blog was fun and kinda depressing because it just reminded me that we have a lot of things we want to do with not a lot of money to do it with! But oh well that's life! Well get there one day! We just have to be patient! :)

Until next time, "Money doesn't grow on trees" :D

30 Day Blog Challenge!

Day 25- Someone who fascinates you and why.

Hey guys sorry its been a while since I've written things just have been a little hectic in this household! LOL! First it was Valentines Day which i was treated to our favorite place to go eat and we came back home had some ice cream and just watched movies together! It was wonderful! Then next thing you know it was March! My Birthdayyyy! LOL! My birthday was awesome! Honey took me out to this really nice and fancy Italian Restaurant! It was amazing! I had such a wonderful time! Anyways, back to the main point of the blog. 30 Day Blog Challenge wants me to write about someone who fascinates me and why. WOW! Not really sure how to answer this one. I haven't really sat down and thought about who fascinates me! LOL! But i will try anything once! So here it goes!

Well  after a couple of days contemplating i finally found the person who fascinates me and why. It is Nancy Reagan! Some of you know her as the first lady. Since i was too young to know her as the first lady of the United States of America, i know her as a woman who was married to Ronald Reagan. This woman since i was a little girl intrigued me. There was always something about her that i just loved. When i became older in life i realized what it was. It was her personality. The way she carried herself. The way she interacted with people that she knew and didn't know. Reading about her just made me more fascinated! Nancy is the woman that all girls and women should look up for guidance, poise, strength, and independence because let me tell you she as it all and then some. This woman not only had all those amazing qualities but for real she even knew how to dress even before she was the first lady! This woman dressed and still dresses so modestly and classy! I love it! she really is a great role model for girls and women everywhere! 

Another reason Nancy fascinates me is her love for her husband. Her love for her husband was and is the strongest I've ever seen(except for my Grandma and Grandpas of course!) She stood behind him all the way until the very end. Through all the stress and chaos that presidency threw at them! They still managed to stay together and make their marriage work! Back when i was reading about her and doing research on her i came across a quote she had said a long time ago about her husband Ronnie! I will never forget it! Here it is: “ I've said it before and I’ll say it again: My life didn't really begin until I met Ronnie.” – Nancy Reagan. What a beautiful quote! When i read that quote for the first time it gave me goosebumps because i honestly without a doubt feel the same way about Billy! Its amazing! I will always remember that quote until the day i die! Definitely one of my Top quotes of all time! :)

This couple is one of my Top inspirational couples of all time! What they had together went over and beyond a marriage. They had a friendship! And you seen that every time they were together! Their love for one another was seen in their eyes and their smiles! All you had to do was just look at a picture of them and you could read that they were in love just by looking at that picture! That's the kind of love i wanted as a child growing up! And that's the kind of love and relationship i have! We know each other so well and Nancy and Ronnie had that same thing! Charlton Heston said "Their love was probably the greatest love affair in the history of the American Presidency.” And i honestly believe that! I mean no one has to sit around and justify their love because they already did that just by looking at the pictures. Here are some more of them! Take a look yourself! 

Beautiful pictures! Just beautiful! I mean don't get me wrong I'm sure they had their ups and downs and arguments and things like that! But what couple and doesn't?!? I mean things happen! I'm just here to let you know they got through it! And if their marriage can survive all the stress and day to day duties of being a president and first lady then by God all the marriages around the United States can survive anything! This couple I'm telling you is the couple to look up to! 

Isn't her inaugural gown Stunning!

Nancy Reagan Is one of my Top idols and inspirational people! I have always looked up to her as a child and i will continue to look up to her until the day i die! She is a remarkable, Strong, Intelligent woman that I've ever researched! Her life and legacy will always live on even after she is gone! My children will know this woman and what she stands for! My daughter will know this woman and i hope she sees what i see when she gets older because i want my daughter to not only look up to me but to look up to someone who is an extraordinary woman with grace and poise! 

Nancy Reagan even though you will never read this i just want you to know that i thank you! I thank you for the person you are and the woman you are! You have taught me so well in how to act, think, and carry myself! You're my role model and inspiration! Even in this picture you are still beautiful and absolutely stunning! You will always be my first lady in my book and in my heart! :) 
--So guys there you have it! There is my someone who fascinates me! The gorgeous Nancy Reagan! I hope that i informed you about her and her life! And i hope people see what i see when i read and look at her! If you don't, i just hope you leave my blog knowing that this woman was extraordinary! That is all!


Until next time, “Just being an eyewitness to the history that occurs around you daily is a rewarding, enlightening, at times even thrilling sensation.” – Nancy Reagan

30 Day Blog Challenge!

Day 24 Your favorite movie and what is it about.

Hey Guys! Ive been sort of under the weather these past few days again. I finally got over my Food Poisoning but then after i did my woman thing came. And now ive god somewhat of a cold from cigarette smoke! Yay me right! Its always something with me! Always excting! LOL! Anyways the blog challenge today is my favorite movie and what it is about! Again this one is gonna be a tough one cause i have ALOT of favorite movies! Its ridiculous how many movies i consider my favorite! But the blog is only asking for one so here it goes! Take scene 1!

So My favorite movie! Hmmm, lets see! I think my absolute favorite movie without a doubt would have to be Dirty Dancing. I love that movie so much! Its a wonderful romance movie! Plus its a classic! The movie is about a young girl named Baby who comes with her parents to their summer vacation pot at Kellerman's Resort. While shes there she meets a dance instructor named Johnny. She starts taking dance lessons and they start growing a fondness for each other. Before you know in the movie they fall in love with each other. She keeps this a secret from her parents especially her father. Something happens at the resort and the owner blames Johnny for it. Baby tells the truth about her and Johnny and thats when her father finds out about them two. Johnny is asked to leave Kellermans for good. So he and Baby say their goodbyes and he leaves. Finally there is a dance thing at Kellermans to end the summer there for everyone. baby is there by herself with her parents. And guess who shows up.. Johnny! Johnny shows up, walks over to babys table and says "Nobody puts baby in the corner" and he grabs her hand and they walk away towards the stage! They go on stage and he announces what baby has done for him and how he changed her and says they are going to dance for the audience! He puts on the record and they start dancing to "The Time of my life"  Then everybody starts dancing! Baby and Johnny start heading out to leave and babys dad walks up and says that he was sorry for how he acted and what he thought of Johnny because he thought Johnny did what the owner thought he did! And Johnny and baby go back out on the dance floor and thats how the movie ends!

I love this movie so much! I guess because she was young and she fell in love with a slightly older man and her father didnt like it! That sort of happened to me.. but my mother and step father wanted me to date and pushed billy and i to date.. because they were getting tired of me always being around them! so i did and then next thing you know they are getting mad cause were spending alot of time together! I know stupid, right! lol! Anyways, its just an awesome movie! if you havent seen it, then i suggest you should! I love it! 

Well guys there you have it! My favorite movie! Im sure some of you already knew what my favorite movie was! Good job if you did! LOL! Until next time, http://youtu.be/ZyFq-8noV_o my favorite part of the movie! check it out! 

30 Day Blog Challenge!

Day 23- Post 5 pictures of famous people you find attractive.

Hey guys! Its me again. I couldn't sleep so i figured id write another blog. But day 23 does not consist of me writing a blog. Day 23 wants me to post 5 pictures of famous people i find attractive! LOL!

So here they are, don't judge me!-

So there you have it my fellow blog readers my 5 famous attractive people! Until next time, "Can't buy me love" <3

30 Day Blog Challenge!

Day 22- How have you changed the past 2 years.

Hey guys! Its been a few days since I've blogged. Alot has happened the past few days. Where to start! First, tax money came in so i went on a shopping spree! Second Honey and i got a Queen bed! And third, i got food poisoning! So yeah I've had an exciting few days! LOL! Anyways the blog tonight wants me to write about how I've changed the past 2 years. Wow! Well this one is going to be a little tough! But I'm up for the challenge! Ha!

How have i changed the past 2 years.. Lets see.. I'm now a pet owner & fur parent! That right there is a life changing moment in itself. But its for the good! She has changed billy and i so much! I just cant explain it! Second i pretty much became a house owner! That is another life changing moment! I am definitely glad that happened too! Its so awesome and a wonderful feeling! I'm also not as hostile as a use to be! But that changed way past 2 years ago! But it still counts! what i mean by not as hostile is that when i get mad i don't go to the extreme and throw stuff and just flip the script. I just walk away and go calm down! that has helped so much its unbelievable! another way I've changed is I'm a little more mature! I've grown even more than the past 2 years! I try not to let little things get to me like i did 2 years ago! Life is too short for that kind of mess! What i mean by that is if i don't get to clean the house on a day that i said i would i don't freak out! I don't base my life around cleaning my house and flip out if it doesn't get done! People waste too much time freaking out about the small stuff that they forget to see whats right in front of them! They forget to stop and smell the roses, as the saying goes! i also changed by not taking college for granted! in which i did and i faced a pretty awful consequence that I'm not proud of. but we learn from our mistakes! were all not perfect! I'm more happier with myself than 2 years ago! i mean don't get me wrong, i was happy but i wasn't happy with myself. i was still feeling like i was ugly and i cant do anything. but that has changed! if i don't feel like wearing makeup, i no longer feel ugly! i still feel pretty regardless! 

Finally, i don't take my life for granted anymore! I live each day like it would be my last! Life is too short not to live that way! Ive lost way too many family members in my life. and I've come to understand that they all lived their life to the fullest. they didn't take their life for granted! yes some of them died suddenly or young but they honestly lived their life to the fullest! my grandma passed away at age 58. that's kind of young right. i thought so too. but i believe she knew she was going to die so that changes everything. God told her she was going to die so she took that and did what she had to do until her last breath! so that's how I've changed the past 2 years. i live the same way! i cherish the people in my life more, I'm closer to family than i was before, i live life to the fullest, i don't sweat the small stuff, and i live each day like it was my last!

so there my fellow blog readers that is how I've changed the past 2 years! its an awesome feeling and i feel so much better about myself and my life! i strongly urge everyone to do the same! you cant go wrong!

until next time, here are a few quotes about life! 

• “To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all.” - Oscar Wilde

• “You only live once, but if you do it right, once is enough.” - Mae West

• “In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on.” - Robert Frost

30 Day Blog Challenge!

Day 21- One of your favorite Tv shows.

Hello again! Yes im writing another blog this morning. Im really not tired so i feel like blogging! LOL! Anyways the blog challenge is asking to write about one of my favorite tv shows! LOL! This is gonna be hard because i have ALOT of tv shows that i love!! Well, here it goes!

One of my favorite tv shows would have to be Reba. I love that show! I love that show because the show is a disfunctional family that deals with issues that a normal american family would deal with on a daily basis. When you watch the show you feel like you relate to any of the issues or problems in each episode. Reba portrays a woman who was married and is in the process of getting a divorce. Shes taking care of her three children and her oldest is pregnant and married all while in high school. Her ex husband cheated on her and married the other woman. And somehow they all get along most of the time!

This tv show is real to me. Everything about it is real. It makes you think about your life in a better way. It makes you love your family even if it is disfunctional or if your family members arent the greatest. You still love them because family is the greatest love of all! I also love the fact that one of my favorite singers has a tv show. So that makes me love the show even more! LOL! if you havent watched this show i suggest you watch it! Its an awsesome show!here is a video from an episode of Reba that is my all time favorite! Definitely a must watch! http://youtu.be/hMOXvPf-gSY

Well guys there you have it! My favorite tv show! Please watch the video because this video shows what Reba the tv show is all about!

Until next time, "We are family" -gotta love that songgg! :)

30 Day Blog Challenge!

Day 20- How important you think education is.

Hey guys! Sorry its been forever since I've blogged! I'm addicted to Netflix again LOL! I'm now watching Buffy The Vampire Slayer! I finally finished Ghost Whisperer! Netflix is awesome! Anyways, back to the subject. Day 20 wants me to right about how important education is. This is gonna be a good one!

Education. Education to me is very important. If you want a decent career, education is the building block for our career. You cannot go through life without education. Education is apart of your daily life. From the time you wake up until the time you go to bed, education is centered around everything. 

If you don't have education your missing a big part of your life. Kind of like a phone without a battery. If you don't have a battery for your phone you cannot operate your phone. So having a phone is a waste. There is no point. Not having an education is the same thing. That's pretty much all i can say about education and how important it is. Bottom line is you have to have it to make it through life. 

To me having an education is important and everyone should get one! Its how knowledge is grown through education! 

Until next time, here are some inspirational quotes about education! 

"Education is the key to unlock the golden door of freedom."
George Washington Carver

"If a nation expects to be ignorant and free, in a state of civilization, it expects what never was and will never be."
Thomas Jefferson

"Intelligence plus character--that is the goal of true education."
Martin Luther King, Jr.

"What sculpture is to a block of marble, education is to the human soul."
Joseph Addison

"Education is more than a luxury; it is a responsibility that society owes to itself."
Robin Cook

"Instruction ends in the school-room, but education ends only with life."
Frederick W.Robertson

"Education is not the filling of a pail,
but the lighting of a fire."
William Butler Yeats

30 Day Blog Challenge!

Day 19-  Your biggest regret in life. (Life Lesson)

Hey guys! So once again I'm up late because I'm in the mood for typing. i swear these moods come and go. kinda like ocean tides. Plus i have alot on my mind tonight. I'm thinking about alot of negative things that has happened in my life. You would think after a while they would stop but they don't. I just don't get it. But anyways, enough about all that mess. Day 19 wants me to talk about my biggest regret. Ready, Set, Go!

Well, If you are reading this and you know me then you know what i am going to say next. I don't have any regrets. Never had regrets. I have life lessons that i have learned from. but i do not have any regrets. One should never have any regrets because if one does then they merely did not live their life right. I do not believe in regrets. Like i said that are called life lessons to me. That's just what i believe. End of story. Well not end of the blog but you know what i mean! LOL!

So, with that said, My biggest life lesson i have had to face so far is not trusting the one who raised me. that means not listening or understanding what she did or what she had to say. That person was my Grandma. She has told me so many things and i never listened. I never paid attention. I was that Grandchild that you couldn't talk to because i knew everything. I hated everyone including my Grandma because she didn't understand me. But that's what i thought. In the end, she did understand me. She was the only one that did. I am now figuring out the things she did were for a reason. But i didn't see that then. Its so weird Looking back then and seeing everything she did and understanding she had a purpose for doing those things. I just wish i had known all of this all along. I would have been a different person and i would have treated her with better respect. 

There is so much that you all don't know about my life. I'm just not ready to talk about it just yet. Hopefully one day. Well guys there you have it. My biggest life lesson. 

Until next time, Never forget where you came from<3

30 Day Blog Challenge!

Day 18- A book you could read over and over and never get sick of it. 

Hey guys! Im back to my Blog Challenge. Today's challenge is asking me to talk about a book that i could read over and over and never get sick of it. This one should be a easy blog. Even though i have alot of books that i could read over and over. LOL! Well here goes nothing!

Books! I love books! The book that i could read over and over again would have to be Eat Pray Love. This book has it all. Love, hate, religion, etc. This woman talks about her life in this book. She talked about who she was and happened and how she was going to change and overcome the horrible things that happened to you. She traveled to the places that she had never been and found herself in all three places by Eating, Praying, and loving. And in the end she found love again. This book is absolutely awesome! Its one of my top favorites! Its a long and thick book but its one of those books that just sucks you in and you find yourself not wanting to put the book down. i love when books are like that. You cant put it down and you just keep reading and reading and flipping page after page just curious what the page is going to be about! Those are the books worth reading and worth buying. at first when i bought the book i thought wow this book was a little pricey. But after i read that book i no longer felt that way. Eay Pray Love was worth every penny that i spent on it. Definitely a must read. 

Reading books is a favorite hobby of mine. Reading books is like taking a vacation. When i read certain books i just get sucked it and it feels like im actually there experiencing everything that im reading. I just love it. I never liked reading when in school because i was made to read and i could never pick books that i wanted to read. You were always told what books to read and i didnt like that. Even if you read the back of the book and you didnt connect with the book you were still told to read it! I dont believe in that! If you dont feel anything from reading the back of the book then you shouldnt get the book or read because your not going to like that. People shouldnt be pushed to read or read books they dont like. It ruins reading for those people.

Eat Pray Love i suggest that everyone reads that book. It will change your outlook on life! It changed mine!

Until next time, Live, Laugh, Love<3

The unfixable bridge.

Hey guys! Im back. Sorry i havent written in a while. The holidays really had me busy from cooking to cleaning and all sorts of fun stuff! I was gonna do my next blog challenge but today I'm not. I'm going to be talking about something else today.

Well yesterday i lost my Grandfather Bobby. He was 69 years old. He wasn't the greatest person ever and he didn't really do any great things in his life either. He wasn't your average person if you get what I'm saying but everyone loved him for some strange reason ill never know. I mean for some reason i loved him too. I think it was because he did joke with you and he did love sports. I love sports as well. So i guess we had certain things in common. He wasn't one to listen to your problems most of the time but he did listen to mine. I could talk to him about anything and he would listen. He wouldn't judge me or turn me away, he would just listen. And that's what i loved about him. He was a good listener. We shared alot of good memories together. On that note i have to get something off my chest about someone who was close to me. I call it The Unfixable bridge.

Well today i went with my mother, uncle, and other uncle to the funeral home to discuss some information about the graveside service and things like that. Well, my uncle David and i got into it. He mentioned to my mom that he wanted to do what they had discussed if my Grandfather had life insurance. He said he wanted to get my Grandmother a headstone. I didn't have any problem with that but that the fact that we would be wasting the money because my Grandfather Ron was going to be getting a joint headstone. Those are the headstone where there are two spaces for names because my grandpa Ron wants my grandma to be buried with him when he dies. Well i was trying to explain that to my Uncle and he flipped. He ended up saying really hurtful things to me for no reason and said hurtful things about my Grandpa Ron. I want to know why do people act like that. Why are there so many hateful people in this world like him. I mean he doesn't care about my family, he doesn't come around. He didn't come around my Grandpa Bobby when he was alive. So why is he here now? Why do people do that to their families? Do they know how much they hurt their family when they say and do things like that? He claims hes a christian and he loves God. But if you actually love God then you wouldn't act that way and do those things to your family. Even if things in the past wasn't all peachy. God tells us to forgive. I know for a fact that I'm no Holy Roller and i do things that I'm not proud of on occasion but I do love God and i do ask for forgiveness all the time. We are not ones to judge others. I'm not judging anybody i just want to know why he did his family this way. And why people treat their families this way. I tried to get close to him, i did. He wouldn't let me. I always tried to get close to him and he always pushed me away. I always wanted us to have a relationship like me and my Uncle Steve. But that never happened. I guess i just wasn't the niece he was expecting. I guess i wasn't good enough for him to be close to. I thought for sure that he and i would be close after the death of my Uncle Steve but it never happened. My uncle Steve and him were just to different people i guess. His whole family I'm not close to. His whole family has nothing to do with me and my side of the family. Its really sad. I guess we aren't cut out to be his family. We're just not good enough for his family. But you know, its all good. God is seeing how he is acting and treating his family. God will take care of it! My uncle has burnt his bridge with me and it will no longer be fixable. I cant have someone like that in my life. I forgive him for what he has done and things he has said, but i will never forget. I will not be surrounded by someone with that kind of attitude and negativity. Its not good. That is merely the Devil and i don't want to have anything to do with the Devil.

What i want you to take from my blog today is please keep your family close. Don't push your family away. You will always need your family no matter what. They may be mean, hateful or what have you. They may not be the family that you always wanted but please keep them close. Never take your family for granted. Don't act like your better than your family because that attitude will get you know where. Once you act like that you'll burn bridges that you wished you still had with people that at one time loved you. At the end of the day God is the one who judges.

"Never forget where you came from"<3