30 Day Blog Challenge!

Day 17- Your highs and lows of this past year.

Hey, its me again. Today is so icky outside. Its raining and cold. Two things that doesnt mix well with me because i wont leave the house if its icky out. I hate rain and i hate when its cold and raining! Anyways Day 17 wants me to blog about my highs and lows of this past year. Not bad. I have a few of each! LOL!

Lets see, first low of this year would have to be moving out of my old house that i had lived in for like 16 or so years. That was very difficult because i felt like i was living parts of my life behind. I had alot of memories in that house. I lost my Grandma living in that house. That house was apart of me and i didn't want to leave. It was very for me move out and move on. But i managed. Without billy i wouldn't have. He let me see it was the best thing and that we were finally going to have a place to call our own! And that was enough for me to change my mind and move on! The second low of this year was since we had to find somewhere to live we were not able to get a vehicle. It sucks not being able to have a vehicle and go to places that you want to go. But honestly if i had to chose i would chose having somewhere to live rather than something to drive. It just sucks we cant go anywhere whenever we want. We just have to be patient. We will get a vehicle soon. I just know it!

Now the highs of this year. I finally got a house and its mine! Well mine and Billy's! LOL! Finally have something to call my own. Finally cleaning and taking care of my own house! Another high of this year is receiving my babygirl. My puppy doodles is the sweetest present for valentines day that i ever received! She is the sweetest, smartest, loveable, puppy i have ever met. She and i have an awesome bond that nothing can replace! She, Billy, and I are really really close! Its like i have my very own family! I love it! She is awesome! Billy and i love her so much! I'm so glad billy said yes when i asked him could we get her! And I'm so glad my friend let me have her with no charge! I'm definitely blessed! :) Lastly, my final high of this year is having a bunch of firsts in my new house. First Easter dinner in my house. First Mothers day dinner for my mother in my home. Mine and Billy's anniversary in our new home. Billy's birthday in our new home. Tippy's first birthday in our new home! Our first Halloween in our new home. Our first thanksgiving in our new home! And here soon our first Christmas in our new home. I even got me a real tree in my new home! Then it'll be our first New year in our new home! I cant wait!

This past year has been full of highs and lows but i wouldn't have it any other way. Spending it with billy and Tippy has made it alot better! They brighten my day and make my days so much better! I love them so much with all of my heart and soul! I just hope they know that! I wanna let billy know that even though there are alot more things we don't have its okay because we have the only thing that matters and that is love! We have love for each other! We are so lucky to have that because everyone else around us are struggling with their significant others and breaking up and divorcing! And here we are still together! And we are younger than most of them! Its crazy but its because of who we are! We know each other so well and we are each others best friends! Most people aren't that lucky! I'm just glad that we are! I love you honey! I'm definitely grateful for you and tippy and everything in my life! :)

Well guys there you have it! My highs and lows of this past year! I'm so grateful to be able to spend those highs and lows with my honey and my babygirl! I cant wait for many more highs and lows with them! :)

Until next time, "Patience is a virtue"<3

30 Day Blog Challenge!

Day 16- Your views on mainstream music.

Hey! Yeah I'm back again. Once again tonight I'm in the mood to typing so here i am doing another blog! This blog isn't going to be that much fun or that long. Day 16 says your views on mainstream music. Really?!? I really don't have any views on mainstream music. But i will give it my all. BAM!

My  views on mainstream music. Well, honestly at first i had no idea what mainstream music was so i had to look it up. Mainstream music is what is played on the radio. Honestly, I'm not against or for it. Its just something that i listen to when I'm in the car or on my computer. Its not to get all worked up about. So i don't understand all the issues i was reading on the Internet about mainstream music. I mean why get mad or upset about something so ridiculous. If you don't like the radio then listen to ipod. DUH! Don't listen to the radio. I like the radio. Its convenient when your in the car and you want to end the dead silence. I mean if the radio went away i guess i wouldn't be upset because there is always satellite radio. 

When i listen to the radio, i only listen to certain stations. I listen to the country, classic rock, and 2wd. Thats it! They are the only stations i like and prefer to listen to. Country's my favorite station. Its so calming and relaxing and easy to sing along with. I guess cause i know every song on that station! LOL!

Well, there's my view on mainstream music. You cant live with it and you cant live without it!

Until next time, "Turn on your radio"-Song from Reba <3

30 Day Blog Challenge!

Day 15- Write 15 interesting facts about yourself.

Hey guys! Today is friday! Oh joy! To me its just another day. Nowadays fridays dont mean that much to me anymore. I guess because i'm not in school or working. And maybe just maybe im getting older and fridays arent as fun as they use to be! LOL! Fridays to me is just a day that i get to spend with my honey and possibly stay up late with him and watch movies or a show. But since hes been working his side job, we havent had that kind of friday yet! But its all good! We need the money to be able to have the necessary things. So as i sit here typing this in my bed, i think what a wonderful life i have! Its the most simplest life but its my simple life. Thats what makes it even more special! Anyways, back to the point of the blog! LOL! Day 15, write 15 interesting facts about myself. Oh boy this ought to be interesting! i dont know if i know 15 facts but its worth a shot! ...And, GO!

15 facts about myself and they are:

1. I cant sleep without a night light or some sort of light in my room.

2. Im a light sleeper. 

3. my favorite color is green.

4. I have to have my dvds and books a certain way when they are on a shelf.

5. my favorite holiday is Christmas!

6. i always wash my hands ALL THE TIME!

7. I hate housework.

8. I love cooking.

9. I love shopping.

10. i love typing.

11. I love kisses.

12. I love bright colors.

13. I love sleep.

14. I love coffee.

15. I love the outdoors!

Well, there are my 15 interesting facts about myself. Not that interesting. Most of them you probably already know about me! 

Until next time, "I'm dreamin' of a white Christmas, just like the ones i use to know. where the tree tops glisten and children listen to hear sleigh bells in the snow" <3

30 Day Blog Challenge!

Day 14- Your earliest memory.

Well, Today im getting a early start on my blog. I dont know why but im in the mood to write. So why not write the next blog, right? Anyways, Day 14 wants me to write about my earliest memory. WOW! I have so many. Where to start? Which one to write about? LOL! Well, since its christmas time, i guess ill write about a earliest christmas memory.

My earliest christmas memory is when all of my family always gathered at my Great Grandma's for christmas or any holiday for that matter. It didnt matter if you had other plans, your butt better come to my Great Grandma's to eat or atleast show your face! I really miss those days so bad. I totally took those christmas's for granted. Now, im wishing i had those christmas's back! Every year my family and i gathered at my Great Grandma's and we ate and shared old memories. It was so much fun! Then we would go in her living room and exchange gifts. It would end up being one of the best days in my life. Spending christmas with my family! Being with all of my family i really miss it. We all were so close and so happy with each other! Those years and days were so awesome. I just cant explain it! Family to me means everything to me. I guess thats why i cant let my mom go. I guess thats why i try to keep close to my mom. I dont wanna loose her too. Shes the only thing i have thats actually real family. I mean dont get me wrong i have billy and tippy and my grandpa but its not the same. I know my mom is the b word sometimes and i know she lets her husband control her, but i still love my mother. If it wasnt for her i wouldnt be alive. So with that, i keep my mother close regardless of the issues i have with her. Anyways, those family gatherings at christmas time at my Great Grandma's was the greatest. No one ever came there with an attitude and if you did, you left it at the door. My great grandma loved the holidays and loved her family. Therefore, you never disrespected her. You always showed her and her home respect. Her home and food was the best ever! I loved staying over there! 

Her food was the best ever! She definitely knew how to cook! She cooked from her heart and soul and you tasted that everytime you ate her food. Her food was never nasty and bland. She never cooked with measuring cups or anything that measures your ingredients. She cooked by eyeing everything. Everytime it came out perfect! She really loved cooking and i think thats where i get it from. I mean i know my Grandma loved cooking too but sometimes she didnt like it and she sometimes she complained about it! My great grandma never did! Atleast she never did around me! LOL! My family, yes, was disfunctional, but i loved my family. I loved that i knew around the holidays we were going to be together no matter what. I mean now its the same sort of. I mean me, billy, tippy, my granddad, and billys mom and brother come over to eat and spend time with us. But thats it. I guess i shouldnt worry about it. I should just be happy with what i have. Enjoy the family that i do have. I just wish some of my family was still around so they could come to my house for the holidays. Enjoy my food and talk about old memories in my house. That would be awesome! My family knew how to have a good time around the holidays and knew how to cook! IT WAS AWESOME! 

That earliest christmas memory will always be apart of me. I guess i just have to be patience and someday ill be able to relive my memories throught my own family one day. I just have to be patient. I honestly cant wait for that time to come. Showing my kids how i grew up around the holidays. Christmas as always been my favorite holiday. I guess its because of my family. It was a time where nothing really mattered. At christmas, no one remembered anything you did in those past couple of months. Christmas was just a time of joy, happiness, and love in my family. That honestly is my favorite earliest memory. Christmas time with my family! Things happen in life that we cant explain happen for a reason. So guys, there you have it! That is my earliest Christmas memory! I wish that memory was still possible but we all have to move on. We all have to make our own memories with our own families. Thats just the way it is! There is no way around it! I just hope one day my children look back at their childhood and love the holidays like i did! I hope i can give that joy during the holidays like i got when i was a child. :)

Well, until next time, love your family with all of your heart. Love that they want to spend time with you because you never know when one day God decides they need to go to heaven. Love them for who they are because who they are is apart of you whether you want to believe that or not! Keep your family close. They will always be there for you no matter what and no matter how old you are and no matter where you go! <3

30 Day Blog Challenge

Day 13- Somewhere you'd like to move or visit.

Hello guys! Sorry i didnt blog last night. I just honestly didnt feel like it. I was watching charmed. LOL! Anyways, day 13 wants me to blog about somewhere i would like to move or visit. Haha! There is a place i wanna do both! LOL! So, lets get this blog started! ...And go!..

I know im suppose to pick one but im not. Im going to talk about both! So, somewhere i would like to move and visit is California! First, i want to visit California because Billy's Grandfather lives there. I have not had the chance to meet him and i would like to. I would like to see where Billy is from even though he didnt stay there long! I want to meet the other half of billys family even if its just his Grandpa! I think its cool that hes close to his Grandpa like i am! So, i have to visit and meet him! Next, i want to move to California because its beautiful. Hands down that state is beautiful. Their beaches and landscapes are gorgeous! Their cities are beautiful as well. Their countryside is also beautiful! I mean who doesnt want to move there? The state of California is my dream place to live. No one can tell me different. I mean i understand that California is a expensive state to live but what place isnt. i mean if you think about anywhere you wan to live is expensive. Thats just the way it is. So why not live somewhere you want to live. Itll be worth all the money you spend living there! That state is just too damn pretty for me to not want to live there. Ive already done the pros and cons of living in that state. and my pros overlap my cons! I will live there someday. It might take some time but i will live there. Ive got to work on billy wanting to live there! LOL! He just doesnt see what i see! I see a beautiful state and he just sees a state that is expensive to live in!

California just has too many things that are beautiful to me to change my mind. Just take a look yourself!

Beautiful landscapes arent they? See i told you that place is beautiful without even trying to be! I love this state! and one day i will live there! A girl can dream cant she? :)

Until next time, "CALIFORNIA, CALIFORNIA, here we come" -The theme song from The O.C <3

30 Day Blog Challenge

Day 12- Bullet your whole day.

Well, hello again. Did you guys miss me. LOL! This blog tonight is quite interesting. It wants me to bullet my whole day. Well, my days aren't that exciting for me to bullet. But i guess i have to. haha! My days aren't busy nowadays since summer is over. Then again i shouldn't say that my days aren't interesting because honestly they are. My dog actually keeps me busy. Yes i do watch charmed all day but she does make me play with her as well. She doesn't like to be ignored! I guess in a way its a good thing. It makes me turn away from the TV, computer, and the phone. I swear this dog is a human. She acts just like a child its ridiculous! LOL! Well, anyways, here goes my day bulleted for all to see! Ready, set, go...

*Woke up at noon.

*Took Tippy outside to go potty.

*Fed Tippy.

*Made a pot of coffee.

*Started watching charmed.

*Took out turkey burger to make shepherd's pie for dinner.

*Poured a cup of Joe.

*Continued to watch charmed.

*Cleaned my wax warmer.

*Put a new wax cube in my warmer.

*Turned on my warmer.

*Continued to watch charmed.

*Talked to my mother for a while.

*Played with Tippy while watching charmed.

*Turned on my Christmas lights inside and outside.

*Started cooking dinner with my honey.

*Started watching Dr. Seuss's how the Grinch stole Christmas with my honey.

*Put the Shepherd's pie in the oven.

*Continued to watch Christmas movie.

*Took dinner out the oven.

*Fixed everyone a plate.

*Continued to watch the movie.

*Turned the movie at 8pm to watch the ACA awards.

*Started watching the ACA awards.

*Took Tippy outside to go potty.

*Started watching the news at 10pm.

*Said good night to my honey.

*Grabbed my laptop.

*Grabbed my Ipod.

*Turned on my laptop.

*Plugged in my Ipod in the computer.

*Signed in to Facebook.

*Signed in to blogspot.

*Updated my status on facebook.

*Started doing Day 12 blog challenge.

*Started listening to Adele.

*Finished my blog.

The End!

Well, guys there you have it! My day in bullets. Gotta love my simple and wonderful life! I know i do even though i complain sometimes. I wouldn't trade it for the world. It means the world to me! :)

Until next time, "Change your perspective to change your life" -Anonymous <3

30 Day Blog Challenge!

Day 11- Put your Ipod on shuffle and write down the first ten songs that pop up.

Okay i know, i know. Its been a while since I've written. I will admit to you guys i had forgotten where i put my Ipod. LOL! Then i just been consumed once again by charmed! This show is just so darn good. I cant stop watching it! I'm going to be really sad when I'm done with all the seasons! But anyways, enough about all of this. It has nothing to do with the blog! LOL!

So, Day 11 wants me to put my Ipod on shuffle and write the first 10 songs that pop up. This should be very interesting because i have a rather broad range of music on my Ipod. Every song and genre on my Ipod goes with whatever mood I'm in on days that i choose to listen to my Ipod! Well, hear it goes! Hope you like the music i like! Ipod is on shuffle, now!

Song 1: So Small-By Carrie Underwood.

Song 2: Flat On The Floor-By Carrie Underwood.

Song 3: If You Ever Stop Loving Me-By Montgomery Gentry.

Song 4: Burn It down-By Five Finger Death Punch.

Song 5: Too Damn Young-By Luke Bryan.

Song 6: Man On The Moon-By Phillip Phillips.

Song 7: Mine-By Taylor Swift.

Song 8: King Of Glory-By Third Day.

Song 9: Love her And Lose me-By Heidi Newfield.

Song 10: Begin Again-By Taylor Swift.

Wow! I'm blown away right now. I cant believe the list that just came up. All of these songs tell a little piece of my life from the past to the present. This is amazing! I cant believe I've put this blog on hold for a while. I guess i didn't really want to do it. I thought it was stupid. But boy was i wrong. I'm so glad i did this blog! It was nice to get a little reminder about my life and how much i have and how much I'm blessed! :)

Well, there you guys have it! My Ipod Shuffle list of 10 songs! I hope you like those songs like i do! They are awesome! :)

Until next time, "Love is music, and music is love. Just embrace it, the melody of life"

30 Day Blog Challenge!

Day 10- Your guilty pleasure(or pleasures)

Well, I'm on time today. LOL! So, Day 10 wants me to write about my guilty pleasures. HaHa, this is going to be interesting. Maybe even embarrassing! I would skip this one but that's not part of the challenge. So here i go. Hope this isn't too much for you guys to read. If it is, then i apologize and there is a x that you can click on to end what you are reading! LOL! 

My guilty pleasures. Oh boy! My guilty pleasures are a mixture of food, material things, and intimate things. I have a list of things. So this is going to take a while. LOl! So here they are:

1. Sex. This is my number one guilty pleasure. I love it! It's this wonderful moment i get to have with the love of my life. It's a moment that doesn't have any words. Its just movement, love, and passion. Its just two people who love each other showing their affection for one another in a way that no one gets to see but them. Its something that you cant explain without explaining in detail. If your childish and immature, then sex is not for you! Sex is something that is meant to be serious, mature, and full of emotion because your showing how much you love your partner like no one can. That's why its my number one guilty pleasure.

2. Shopping. Shopping is my next guilty pleasure. I know, I know, what your thinking. Money doesn't make you happy and blah blah blah. I know that. But i don't believe that. It doesn't make me happy. It just a guilty pleasure that i like. I love shopping! Especially when there are sales. Catching sales at stores is awesome! Its this feeling of awesomeness that i cant explain. All i know is you want those things because its on sale and because when you buy it you saved money! Its totally like a win-win situation! And who doesn't love that?!? :D

3. FOOD! Food is my next guilty pleasure. I LOVE FOOD! Food is so good. It makes you feel calm, warm, and cozy! Food makes feel like your in a different place. Like for example, when i get pasta or some kind of Italian food, i feel like i am in Italy enjoying my plate of food. I hear the music and its so calming! Its so cool! I know I'm weird but i cant help it! Its who i am! 

4. Candy. Candy is another guilty pleasure! I love candy! It doesn't matter if its fruity or chocolate! Candy is candy! LOL! Its so good! Especially when I'm on my woman thing! It makes my pain go away! It comforts my belly! Even if I'm not on it! Sweets are awesome! They make a bad day turn sweet! Gotta love that! :)

5. Coffee! I gotta have! It smells, tastes, and feel so good! Starbucks is my favorite coffee! It tastes so good! Its so smooth and it doesn't have an after bit like some coffee brands! Starbucks coffee, depending on what kind you get, is strong! Strong coffee to me is the best because you don't need a whole lot when you make a pot of coffee! It helps save your coffee so you don't run out! Plus, it tastes yummy! 

6. Wax melts! Those are so addicting! I'm always going to them at Walmart and smelling them! I have wax categories! Spring/summer, fall, winter. Yeah its save to say that they are more than just a guilty pleasure, they are obsession! LOL! They smell amazing! Right now, my winter collection is my favorite! They smell so dang good! They all smell like Christmas! They take me back to when i was a kid and my Grandma had Christmas smells in the home! I don't know what they were, but they made the house smell so good! So, now, i can do the same but just with a wax warmer and wax melts! Gotta love wax melts! I know i do! :)

So, guys, there you have it! My guilty pleasures in a list form! I know I'm crazy! Hope they aren't too much for you to read! 

Until next time, "Confidence is the only key. I cant think of any better representation of beauty than someone who is unafraid to be herself."-Emma Stone

30 Day Blog Challenge!

Day 9- if you could have any job in the world, what would it be?

This one is going to be easy. You guys should know already what job i would want to have! :)

If i could have any job in the world, it would be a preschool teacher! That is my dream job. I want that job more than anything. So I'm trying to work as hard as i can to accomplish that dream. When i was growing up my dream job was a nurse. i wanted to help people get better. But that slowly changed when my body changed and made me get nauseous to the site of blood. So after that, i figured that i don't need to know what job i wanted. I would figure it out one day. There was no rush in figuring it out right then and there.

Being a preschool teacher to me means the world to me. I would do almost about anything to become one. I want to help children out so much. I remember when i was a child that one of my favorite teachers was a preschool teacher! She was so kind and dear to me. To me, she was so smart. She listened to me when i had questions. She was never mean to me. Never hollered at me or my class. Looking back, she really loved her job and really cared about me and my classmates! I want that. I want to be that teacher! I want to help children with school! i want them to love school like i did! Children in this world don't like school like they did when i was growing up. I want to change that. I want to be the reason for the change. School is so important and so fun if you make it fun! School is building blocks for your path in life! I never believed that until i grew up and started college!

Becoming a preschool teacher is the coolest thing i think that could ever happen to me. Its the coolest job anyone could ever have! Who wouldn't love working with children all day. Teaching them the coolest things about school. Teaching them their ABC's, teaching them how to write their name, teaching them words, teaching them about nature, etc. Who would not want to be apart of that? That's the coolest because when you teach them those things, because you sit back and say, i did that! I'm the reason why they know how to spell and write their name! That will warm my heart more than any coat or clothing ever will!

So guys, there you have it! Preschool teacher is the job that i would want to have if i could have any one in the world! I cannot wait till i graduate from college! I think i will cry so many tears of joy that day! I think that day will be the greatest day of my life. Well, until i get married of course ;) LOL!

So, until next time, "Never settle for ordinary, when you were meant to be extraordinary" :)

30 Day Blog Challenge!

Day 8- A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.

Well, guys I am so sorry that I've taken forever to complete more of the 30 Day Blog Challenge. Thanksgiving and Decorating for Christmas kind of swallowed all my time. It was quite hectic around my house the day before Thanksgiving, Thanksgiving, and that weekend. It was crazy. My house is finally decorated for Christmas! It's so exciting to me because its my FAVORITE holiday! I LOVE Christmas! Anyways, Day 8, A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life. Ready, set, go..

I would have to say a moment i felt the most satisfied with my life would be when Billy and I moved in our new home! After that, i felt accomplished! I felt like we had accomplished one of our biggest goals we've been trying to reach for a while now! Things started falling into place like it was suppose for us when we moved in! I couldn't be more happier and satisfied! Yes there are things that we still don't have, but it doesn't matter to me. Having my own home means so much more! Having something that i can call mine feels so amazing! You honestly feel satisfied! You can decorate it how you want it, you can put things in it that you want, and no one can say nothing! If they do, it doesn't matter because its yours!

I honestly didn't think i would be able to say when i was satisfied in my life. I guess i was still looking at the negative. I'm a completely different person now. I'm alot happier about things. I love my home and it shows in my home! I feel really blessed for everything that has come my way. I have God and my boyfriend to thank. Those two have really given me alot. I don't say it alot but i do love them! They mean the world to me. Without them, i wouldn't have a moment that i felt satisfied with my life!

That's pretty much it in a nutshell. Plain and simple. Can't get no better than that! Raw, simple, truth!

Until next time, Live life to the fullest! :)

30 Day Blog Challenge!

Day 7- Your Favorite childhood toys.

I have made it to Day 7. Day 7 wants me to write about my favorite childhood toys. This one is going to be fun!

My favorite childhood toys when I was growing up were:

1. My Barbies! I loved playing with my barbies. When I was playing with barbies, they made me feel like I was a fashion designer!

2. My baby dolls! I loved playing with my baby dolls. They made me feel like I was a mommy!

3. My Barbie car! I loved driving and playing with my Barbie car! It was so much fun! I felt like it was real! So fun!

4. My board games! Loved playing with them! I loved taking the money from monopoly and putting it my purse! I thought I had so much money! :)

5. My Nintendo 64! I loved playing with my video game! Super Mario kart bros was my favorite! My second favorite was the Nascar game! I had a pedal and wheel! So fun!

6. My karaoke machine! I still remember when I got that one year for Christmas! That was my best Christmas! That gift was awesome! I loved that thing! I sang on that thing all the time!

7. My stuffed animals! I loved playing with them! When I was little they were my friends! I talked to them and they made me feel better! They were always there when I was sad or upset! They always caught my tears! <3

Well, there you have guys! My list of my favorite childhood toys! There isn't many because I really didn't have that many toys growing up! I had these and I liked to play pretend all the time! You really don't need to toys to play pretend! I also read when I was a kid!

So, until next time, "Silly rabbit, Trix are for kids" :)

30 Day Blog Challenge!

Day 6- your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.

Well, this one is going to be interesting. Day 6 wants me to talk about my zodiac sign and does it fit my personality. This will be fun!

I honestly don't really believe in horoscopes and things like that. But I do believe that my zodiac sign really fits me and my personality. The traits are identical to how I am and my moods. My zodiac sign is Pisces. Pisces are the most impressionable of the twelve zodiac signs. Deeply empathetic, they often exhibit a gentle, patient nature, but one that is in want of inspiration. Pisces can be deeply affected by and completely absorbed into their environment.  Loving, spiritual, sympathetic, in-tune, easy to get along with, artistic, romantic. Pisces are caring, intuitive mates and favor the security of long-term monogamous relationships. Love comes easily and naturally to Pisces. Hopelessly romantic, Pisces are affectionate, committed and loyal partners. Pisces have the natural ability to read and understand their mate's feelings and needs fairly effortlessly. Quite often, that can lead to a lot of hurt for gentle Pisces who might not too easily find a mate that "gets" them quite the same way.

Those traits are so me all the way. I'm very needy and I am such a hopeless romantic! I know why now! LOL! I really do know how to read people and how they are feeling or what they are feeling. I've always been able to do that! Now I know why. This is really cool to find out all about this stuff. I mean I knew about Pisces being sensitive and needy. I just didn't know about us being empathetic, patient, spiritual, etc. Very, very cool information!

Well there you have it! That's my sign and I'm sticking to it! LOL! I do not believe in astrology. I do, however,  believe the personality traits of Pisces. They are the traits that I have and make who I am! This is so cool and very exciting!

The personality trait info came from http://www.thepiscessign.com/

Until next time, "Love yourself for who you are" :)

30 Day Blog Challenge!

Day 5- Your favorite comfort foods and why.

Well hello day 5, I've been expecting you! As you all read Day 5 wants me to write about my favorite comfort foods and why they are my comfort foods. Well this one is a piece of cake! Ha ha! Let me warn you I have different comfort foods that go with my mood so this blog might be a little long and you'll probably want food after you read it! I'm wondering should I put a warning on this blog? LOL!

First things first, I love food. This has been my biggest struggle and my biggest downfall that I have faced since I was young. But when I got older I learned tips and tricks from family, friends, and the Internet to help that. Sometimes I don't use them and sometimes I do. Like I said earlier I have comfort foods that go along with what kind of mood I am in! Are you ready?

1. Sweets. Sweets are my number one comfort food. I have a sweet tooth. My favorite sweet Ice cream! Mint chocolate chip is my favorite! I crave different sweets and ice creams when I'm in different moods. Its just something about Ice cream that it doesn't matter what mood I am in I can eat it!

2. Thanksgiving foods. I know your only suppose to eat those on Thanksgiving but me, I can eat them any day of the week! It doesn't matter. Turkey, stuffing, yams, deviled eggs, green bean casserole, etc. SO GOOD! Something about these foods it just comforts your heart and tummy and just makes you feel so warm and cozy! And I love to feel that way any time of the year! :)

3. Greek salads! I love this salad. It is my favorite salad of all time. I have to thank my Grandma for that! I was eating Greek Salads ever since I was old enough to eat grown up foods! This salad is absolutely amazing! From the feta cheese, to the oil and vinegar, every inch of this salad tastes like heaven from start to finish! One day I will taste a fresh Greek salad from Greece! :)

4. Pasta! Any kind of pasta will do! I love pasta so much! I love the different kind of noodles and sauces you can make to make pasta! Pasta to me is another food that warms your heart. I think this is my downfall for loosing weight because anything pasta or bread related is bad for you when your trying to eat healthy! I could give up bread but I cant give up pasta! :)

5. McDonald's French fries! I love their French fries. The taste of them I crave ever once in a while and they are so good! I don't eat McDonald's all the time, so when I do it really comforts my tummy! I don't know what they do to their fries but they are not like any other fry out there I don't care what anybody says! McDonald's has the best fries! :D

6. Peanut butter! I absolutely love peanut butter just as much as I love chocolate or any other sweet! Any food that has peanut butter in it is so good! Peanut butter really coats and comforts your insides really well! It just makes your forget all the bad things that happened in your day if you had any! Peanut butter is like the multipurpose spread for almost anything. It almost goes with anything! It just tastes so good! I LOVE IT! :D

7. Burger King Whoppers! Their burgers are ahhhmazzinggg! I love them so! With extra onion and pickle! UGH, talk about yummy! So good! The whopper to me, taste just like I would cook it on the grill myself! I think that's why I love burger king so much! That charcoal taste is the best! Gotta love Charcoal grills! :-P

8. Lastly and finally, Grapes! I love Grapes! My favorite Grapes are the Red Seedless grapes! OMG, I could eat them all day and all night! I could eat a whole bag of them in one sitting! I don't recommend that though! I've done with my Grandma before while we were watching a lifetime movie! We ate the whole bag like they were popcorn! LOL! I don't know what it is about those grapes but they are so good! Especially if they are really fresh! They are so juicy and crunchy! It just comforts my tummy so much better than chips could any day! LOVE LOVE LOVE THEM! :D

Well, there you have it guys! My list of comfort foods that I love so much and why I love them so! They make any bad day good! <3

Until next time, "If your afraid of butter, use cream" -Julia child

30 Day Blog Challenge!

Day 4- Your views on Religion.

So, day 4 is here. I figured I would write my challenge now instead of waiting until later. I wont be around to write it later. Today is my Mother's birthday and we're going out to celebrate! Anyways, my views on religion. I can do this one with no problem. So here it goes..

Well, my views on religion are simple. Believe in God. The maker and creator of all things. The one who made me, made, my lover, and who made you! That's what I believe. I believe if you don't believe in God you will not go to heaven. Plain and simple. Not only to I believe in God but I also believe when you do believe in God you must confess your love by getting baptized in front of witnesses! This shows your love for him and shows your not afraid to tell the world about God and the things he has done and will do for you!

There are many people in this world who don't believe in him nor what to believe or do anything to prove their love for him. So I want to ask people, why prove your love any other way? If you cant prove your love to the one person you made who you are, why prove your love anywhere else. Like, to your true love, to your children, to your animals, your grandchildren, etc. Its the same thing. You and your partner love each other but to show that you love each other you decide to get married. Not only to get married for each other but you get married in front your family, friends, and people you don't know to show how much you love each other. So why cant people do that for God?

Look, please don't think I am this bible thumbing goody to shoes that doesn't do anything wrong. I do. There was a time that I didn't believe in God, didn't go to church, and did things that I'm not proud of. I was a rebellious teenager who didn't care what people told me and didn't listen to my loved ones who was trying to tell me wrong from right. I knew everything, you couldn't tell me nothing. Then my Grandma started going to church. She found the Lord. I thought at that time I did. I was going to church, going to Sunday school, going to youth group meetings, church events, youth events, etc. But I found out my heart wasn't in it. There was something missing but I couldn't figure it out. So I just brushed it off and just played along. Well, then suddenly my grandma passed away. After that, my love, heart, and soul released from him. That's the worse thing possible you can ever let happen. but I did. I no longer believed in him or anything. I totally lost my way. So, I started heading now the wrong road. I started drinking. Keep in mind I'm only 17-18 years old. I started smoking marijuana right after that. And I had the bad habit of smoking cigarettes. I thought I was so cool but also it was the only way I knew how to deal with my loss of my grandma. So this played out for a year. Then 2008 came. I met the love of my life. I think God had something to do with this I swear. Suddenly, things started looking up for me. We started going to church together. Reading the bible together. We both found the Lord together. So, we got baptized together! It was the best day of my life! I had found the Lord again! I had showed him that I love him and still believe in him! It was amazing! We even confessed our love in front of strangers and loved ones! It was the greatest feeling I ever felt!

So, you see I wasn't always loyal to God. I strayed from him. But the good thing is he knows that you are going to stray. He knows there is going to be a time when you question his reasons for everything. But the good news is that he doesn't care. He doesn't care if you hurt him, he doesn't care that you stab him in the back, he doesn't care that your not perfect, he doesn't care that you've made mistakes. He will always and forever love you! That love is the greatest love of all! His love is like no other! He loves you no matter what! His love you can count on to always be there. You never have to second guess it! He even loved us so much that he sent his son to die for us, died for our sins, just so we could have eternal and everlasting life with God in heaven! Now that's true love! Who doesn't want that in their life?

Well, there you have it. That is my view on religion. If you don't believe or your struggling with your faith, please just talk to him. Talk to the Lord about it because he can hear and he's waiting for you to talk to him. Talk to him like a friend because honestly, he is your friend. He will listen and he will answer. He may not answer right away but he will answer. You just have to have patience. "Patience is a virtue."

Until next time, "Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you."- Deuteronomy 31:6

30 Day Blog Challenge!

Day 3- Your top 5 pet peeves.

So, day 3 is here. Sorry I'm a little late writing. I've been consumed by "Charmed." This TV show is so addicting. I'm watching it everyday and every night. Anyways, back to the subject. Day 3 wants me to write about my top 5 pet peeves. I have so many pet peeves I really don't know how to narrow them done to my top 5. Well, looks like ima have to. LOL!

My top 5 pet peeves:

1. Smacking lips. I cannot stand that. Its the one I cant stand the most. Its so annoying and the sound is awful just like nails scratching on a chalk board. I have no idea what started this pet peeve but I've had it since I was young. The smacking of lips while people are eating and chewing is beyond gross. I hate for people to eat potato chips and make them crunch! Ugh! Just talking about this pet peeve is making my skin crawl!

2. People who snore. This is just as annoying as smacking lips. I don't know when this pet peeve started either but it has annoyed me since I was young. I cannot stand people who snore. The sound is so irritating just like the sound of nails on a chalk board or someone smacking their lips. I don't know why it bothers me but it does. When I hear it I cant sleep what so ever! Its a annoying sound in my ear that I cant stop no matter what I do! So when I cant sleep its a problem. That's why I cant stand for someone to snore. People say its something they cant control but I beg to differ with them! It is! I am a witness. My boyfriend can stop snoring depending on how he sleeps and if I tell him to stop. So that whole, I cant control thing is crap! LOL!

3. Leaving the toilet seat up. This one is so annoying. You don't know how many times I've sat down on the toilet and the seat has been up! OMG! Talk about furious! Like what is so hard with putting the toilet seat down. If you lift it up you should be able to sit it back down. UGH! So gross!

4. People who leave the TV on while sleeping. I don't know why this bothers me but it does. Yet I have to sleep with a night light. But that's different! Sleeping with the TV on is ridiculous! It does not serve a purpose! Its just more noise in the room while you are trying to go to sleep! ANNOYING!! If your tired, turn the damn thing off and go to bed! LOL!

5. Lastly, I cannot stand for someone to talk during a movie! UGH! I guess that's why I don't go to the movie theater all the time like I use to when I was a teenager. I've grown up and I cant stand noises and people talking while I'm trying to watch a movie that I paid money to see! How rude! If you want to talk why even come to the movie theater! I mean seriously! They could have went out to dinner or the bowling alley or something! Its so frustrating! That's why Billy and I don't go to the movies anymore because of the people not having any respect for other people watching the movie! What happened to respect?!? I guess people just don't give a damn anymore and that's sad. That's why the world is the way it is!

So there you have it. Those are my top 5 pet peeves! All of these things bother me but I'm slowly learning how to deal with them! Ive come along way but it is still difficult!

Until next time, "Don't get mad, get Glad" :)

30 Day Blog Challenge!

Day 2- where you'd like to be in 10 years.

So, Day 2 has approached. Not sure how I feel about it. I haven't really sat down and thought about where id like to be in 10 years since I was a teenager. So this one is going to be a little tricky for me to write about. Plus, I am already living in my own home. I already have the love of my life. And I already have child. She may be a dog but she is still my child. So, I pretty much have everything I could possibly want. Well, I guess not everything. So here it goes...

Where id like to be in 10 years? Let me see... The year will be 2023. Id like to be in my same home, with the same man, and with the same dog. I hope to be married in 10 years. I hope Billy and I finally tie the knot together in front of our family and friends that love us, FINALLY! LOL! I hope to be a wife in 10 years. One of my dreams I've been dreaming about for a while now. Being married and being a wife is something I've looked forward to for quite sometime. Just the thought of my wedding just gives me butterflies. Yeah, I'm a little kid a heart. Nothings gonna change that. I hope Billy and I finally are able to afford the wedding of our dreams. Then after our wedding I hope to go on our honeymoon. I don't wanna wait like most people that I know. I want take my honeymoon like tradition, right after the wedding. Our dream honeymoon is going to Disneyland. We both have never been and have always wanted to go. So, I guess you can say we both are kids at heart! I guess that's why we are so good together.

Id like to be a college graduate in 10 years. I hope have finished one of my life stepping stones that I never got to finish in high school. Walking across the stage to receive my college degree means everything to me. Its another dream of mine that I will eventually achieve. I want to be done with school and start working in the profession that I chose. Working at a daycare with children is my calling. Its something that I have always wanted to do. I had to figure it out the hard way but I'm glad I finally did. I always thought that when chasing your dream job you just had to think practical. Like money and financial practical. Billy should me that its okay that my dream job I wont be making a lot of money because its something that I love doing. Doing something that I love is worth more than any job that pays a lot of money. Glad he taught me that.

Id like to be a soon to be mom or a mom in 10 years. This topic, "Motherhood" I've dodged quite a bit. I've gone back and forth. Saying I wanted children, to I don't want children, to I don't know. Yeah I'm quite flippy floppy when it comes to being a mom. I guess because I'm scared. That's the root of the problem. I'm scared and terrified of being a mom. The things that have happened to me I really don't want that for my children. I'm scared I'm going to treat my children like I was treated. I really don't want that either for my children. I honestly keep thinking I'm not going to be a good mom. I'm really scared that they are going to end up like me. I mean don't get me wrong I'm a good person and all but I wasn't always like that. I don't think I could handle who I was with my children. I don't think I could handle my children drinking and smoking at a young age. I also don't think this world is a good place to raise children. Right now there is so much violence. Its so not safe for children. I really don't think I could handle things like this if I had children. Honestly though I have done a lot of thinking if you couldn't tell. I finally just let all of this go a couple of months. I thought if I have kids I have kids and if I don't, I don't. If I do, its okay because God and my loved ones are going to be there for me. I wont be by myself if I do have children. Yes having and raising children is scary, but everything in life is scary. Growing up, moving out, going to school, finding your true love, loosing loved ones, believing in something you cant see, buying a house, getting married, etc. All of these are scary but we do them because they are dreams that we have and want them to come true. So, when it comes down to it, I want children. I hope in 10 years or so, I hope to become a soon to be mom or a mom.

Finally, I'd like to be a little thinner in 10 years. I hope by then I get this laziness together and start exercising. I want to be thinner than what I am now. I even know what I need to do I'm just to damn lazy to do it. So, I'm hoping in 10 years this laziness has left and that I'm thinner by 2023. What a goal right? To be thin by 2023. That's a long way away. But you have to start somewhere right? I'm thinking the first of the year I'm going to get serious with exercising. I want to be healthy and I want to have a healthy body. I'm tired of being big. I'm tired of looking in the mirror and seeing my body. I mean don't get me wrong I love myself. I love who I am, I just want to be a healthier me from the inside out. So I don't want to loose drastic weight. I don't want to be super skinny. I just want to be healthy. And I will. I will get there. So in 10 years I can look back and say, I met my goal! :)

So, that is where I want to be in 10 years. I thought at first, I was going to have a hard time with this. When I started it, my thoughts just came out without much trouble. To me, these are goals. I will have these goals accomplished eventually. I just have to be patient!

Until next time, keep your dreams unlimited! :)

30 Day Blog Challenge!

Day 1-Your current relationship. If single, discuss being single.

Well, Day 1 has approached me. A little fast but its still here. So as you can see Day 1 wants me to discuss my current relationship. Its not bad. I can handle talking about the love of my life. Not sure if he is going to like it, but oh well. I am happy and I'm the luckiest girl in the world. So everyone in the world needs to know too! I am not ashamed of anything, especially my love life! I'm the exact opposite! I love telling people about my love story! "Its a love story, baby just say yes!" Yes I just quoted Taylor Swift! I'm such a geek! Well here goes my story, you ready?!

My current relationship. I'm in a relationship. I have a boyfriend. We have been together for 5 years. We met in 2008 and started dating in that same year. It was like a dream come true. Just a few weeks before meeting him I was thinking I was never going to find my true love. Someone who loves me for who I am. Who can handle that I'm not your typical girly girl. I'm  a little rough around the edges the saying goes. Who loves me, my mind, my body, and my soul. I had given up looking. I figured that if God wanted me to be with someone he would bring them to me. I mean I had all the time in the world. I was only 19. So what's the rush, I told myself. Then after that it was like God did his magic, and Billy and I found each other. Its really like a fairy tale but not the kind you read in your books. Or even the children books. It's the kind that when you an adult, you dream of. As an adult, you meet someone when you least expect it. It sort of sneaks up on you like hugs from behind. And it just transforms your heart, your soul, and your mind from hate and self pity, to love, kindness, and happiness. It makes you feel all warm, cozy, and fuzzy like your favorite blanket you curl up with while drinking you favorite cup of coffee! That's my fairy tale!

I don't regret anything about our relationship. Everything that  happened has happened for a reason. Our relationship back then was like a roller coaster. We started dating and we were so high up I couldn't see the ground. Next thing you know we come back down and we are so far down we couldn't see up. It was like that for a while. Billy and I had some things that we were trying to hide and things we didn't want each other to know. That was a bad idea. It led us to doing things to each other that we shouldn't have been doing. But once again, with the Lord's help we were able to make it through. All boyfriend and girlfriend relationships go through a rough time. I think God has something to do with that. To see if you and your partner are really meant to be together. I'm kind of glad he did do that because I tell you what, it has made Billy and I stronger has partners. We have grown so much since 2009. I mean we had our arguments since that year but nothing like when we first started out. A lot of our conflicts was because of us not being out on our own. Not having our own place and things like that. But that gift was given to us just a few months ago. In February to be exact! Since we've had our own place, we don't argue that much. I mean we get on each other nerves but honestly that's our own little thing we do sometimes to show our love for one another. We like to aggravate each other. Sometimes is our way of showing the other that we need something. I cant go into deeper explanation but you should get what I'm saying. LOL! Another cool thing about our relationship, we both were each others firsts. That, that right there is worth all the waiting in the world when you find someone who is your first and you are theirs!

Billy is definitely my best friend. Actually we both are each others best friends. We kind of balance each other out. We bring each other up when one of us is down. He tells me exactly what I don't want to hear. Sometimes that annoys me and I get angry but at the same time I need someone to tell me the truth. And he does just that. He comforts me afterwards because it hurts. But I like that. I'm glad he's like that. I love who he is. Everything about him. He has made me a better person since I've been with him. When he met me, I was a wild child. I was drinking, smoking, and smoking cigarettes. Looking back I don't know why he fell in love with someone like me but I guess he seen inside of me. I guess he fell in love my with soul. Which if you think about it, that's kind of cool. He helped me kick my addictions and become someone I loved again. After that, I could finally look at myself in the mirror and actually like what I see. I felt happier and good about myself. He helped me apply to college. and since then I've been a college student. He honestly saved my life. I swear he and God must be working together because they sure have changed my life ALOT!

Looking back at all of this, just helps me to see how blessed I am to have such a wonderful man in my life. We will eventually get married. We haven't yet because I want a beautiful wedding that I will never forget and I don't want anyone to help with the money part. So that's gonna take some time. I want my dream wedding and I am eventually going to get it. I'm patience.

So, with that, My relationship has taught me a lot. It has taught me that I must be patient. I waited for the right one to come along and he did. I just had to be patient. It has taught me that you never judge a book by its cover. Always love from the inside out. It has taught me that actions speak louder than words. Love today for tomorrow is not promised. Good things come to those who wait. 

Until next time, "All you need is love" :)

30 Day Blog Challenge! Why not right?

 

so I found this on my cousin's blog and it looked very interesting to do! So I figured shoot why not! Well I would get started tonight but I really wanna spend quality time with my love! So Day 1 will just have to wait till tomorrow! So until next time, "Don't worry, be happy!" :)

Blogger fever! Oh yeah i've got it!

OH I'VE MISSED IT!!!

Well as you can guess from the title I'm having Blogger fever! Is there such a thing I have no idea but I swear to you its legit. I was reading my blogs the other night in my living room watching "Charmed" and I was like OMG I have to start blogging again, I miss it! So here I am at 7:34am writing a blog. I have to tell you guys it feels good! Wow, what a geek I am!

Anyways, enough of that! So, lets see the last time I wrote was back in May telling you all about my home, my NEW life, and our wonderful new addition! Well things haven't changed really. I just finished my Summer camp counselor job in August. I sort of wish that it was a full time job just to help Billy out with bills. But things happen for a reason I guess. After work was over, I pretty much just do things around the house to pass the time. I guess you can call me a "Housegirlfriend." You can't call me a housewife, I ain't married, yet! I tell you what though I sure do miss college. Oh yeah, about college, that's something new added to my lists of things that has changed.

College, well back in February we were moving and as we were in the process of moving, I started having assignments due in my classes and there was no way of me getting those assignments done. So I dropped my classes without being penalized. Well, at least I thought I wasn't going to get penalized. Wrong! Since I had dropped out too early, and in the process of that I received my financial refund check, I now in order to return to school I have to pay that refund back! So for now, I won't be attending school anytime soon because the amount is $773.00! Crazy, right? I know! But like I always say, things in life happen for a reason. God for some reason didn't want me to go to school for fall or for next spring. I have no idea why, he just did! And you know what, I'm okay with that! I'm okay that this happened maybe I needed a break or maybe I needed this time off so I can see that I shouldn't take school for granted because it could be gone in a blink of an eye!

Since that I have a lot of time to myself. I kinda like it actually. I just bought Elizabeth Gilbert's new book "The Signature of all things" so far it's an awesome book! I love her books! I mean this one is fiction but it's just something about how she writes it doesn't matter if its fiction or non-fiction you just love it and fall in love with it! She is one of my favorite writers! It would be a dream of mine to meet her one day! Funny thing, I do want to write my own book one day! Even though starting this blog a while back I kinda feel like I've already started writing my book! LOL! I know, I'm such a dreamer its ridiculous! But for real I really do wanna write my own one day! I wanna tell my story for the whole world to read! I wanna write everything has happened to me throughout my whole life! I have no idea why, I just do. I want people to read about my life. I guess because I made it through it all! I'm a stronger and better person because of all the things that happened to me. I guess I also want to write about finding the Lord. My own personal story about finding the Lord and that he is real and people should believe in him! I will do it one day!

I was gonna talk about a couple months back about what happened between my mother and my stepfather but its not worth talking about. All I will say that it was a lesson learned. I will never ask for help from her again because since mine and my step dad's fall out, he will no longer allow my mother to do anything for me! It hurts, it hurts really bad. But you know, its okay because he may think he's winning with all his hate but he's not. He's the one suffering because the Devil loves hate and that's all I have to say about that! Its just sad that my mother has to be subjected to such hate and she chooses her husband over her daughter but again its okay. I've got all the people I need to help me out! I'm grateful and blessed for those people. God has them in my life for a reason and that reason I don't know but I am truly grateful!

So with all of that its very important to have the Lord in your life. He makes things so much better and easier. He brings people in your life that you need to survive and get through your life. He is such a wonderful person to do that. To love us that much, to make sure we are okay, to loves us even though we stray from him!

Until next time, God is the reason for the season! :)

New Chapter Continued

Where to start?!? It's been forever since I've blogged. Last time I blogged I was talking about moving. Well let's see. We finally moved February 15th. It was a crazy move but we did it. My house is so beautiful. I love everything about it. I love even more that in 3 years it will legit be ours but I call it ours now. Were not going no where and we aren't changing our minds. This is official. Also the day before we moved, we got a new addition to our family. Her name is Tippy. She is Pit bull and basenji mix. Oh boy do I love this puppy. She is my whole world. Her love is so amazing. I never thought I could feel so much for an animal as I do her. She makes my cloudy days so much better. She is totally and completely a MOMMAS GIRL! She loves daddy too but just not as much. She follows me around everywhere I go. She listens to me so good. She is definitely a well behaved puppy. She's so sweet and lovable and cuddly. She loves to me loved on 24 hours a day. She gets on my nerves some days but that's what puppies do. LoL. My life has changed so much over the past couple of months. Its ridiculous. So much has happened, all positive. Things are starting to look up for Billy and I. At this point in my life I am just so happy how things are. I mean I could tell you all the things that are wrong. Like, we don't have a vehicle, we don't go places like we use to, we don't have the money to go and do things like we use to, but to me, all that doesn't matter because I have a home. I have something that I can call mine. Those other things don't matter to me right now. The vehicle situation, we will get to that eventually. It takes time for things that you want. They just don't come to you out of no where. Things that billy and I have, came from us working our asses off to get it. Struggling for us is no big issue. It bothers us sometimes, but most of the time, we are fine with it. You may thing I'm crazy but even though we don't go to church every Sunday, God is in our hearts, and we always thank him and praise him with everything that we got and have in our lives. You've got to have God in your heart and in your life for things to come to you. God is the reason for everything good on earth. He has done so much for billy and I that I owe him so much in return. But he doesn't want anything in return, he just wants our love! So yeah, the last time I wrote I was a mess. I didn't want to move, I didn't want to leave my old house, etc. Now, I'm good. I am officially happy and I'm staying that way. I have so much to be thankful for to be all sad, angry, etc. I have a wonderful boyfriend, my babygirl, and a beautiful home that is MINE!
--The saying is so true but I never paid any attention to it before, "God never shuts one door without opening another"

Starting a new Chapter in life

Moving... Why are some of us scared to move? Moving out is like a major step you take in your life. Its a new change to what your use to. It is either good or bad and sometimes its in between. Its scary for some of us. The reason why its so scary for some of us is because its that "BIG" thing called the unknown. Your afraid of what might happen in the unknown so moving or anything that requires change, becomes scary.

So has most of you all know according to facebook, i am moving. First off, i knew i had to move sometime in my near future but i didn't know it would be this soon. We knew our landlord wanted to sell the house that we are in simply because she doesn't want nothing to do with it anymore. She simply is getting "too old". But like i said we never thought it would be this sudden. Well, anyways, we had offered her a plan. It was a rent to own type of plan. she wouldn't have anything to do with the house other than take the rent for the next three years. After that, billy and i sign papers and the house is ours. But no. She didn't want to go for that plan. She simply refused. So, at that point, we knew we had to move. Yes, i am a grown woman but i will admit that i was extremely upset, hurt, and sad. At first, i felt like i didn't want to move. this house was mine. i have lived here for like 16 years or so. I felt like a part of me was going to be taken away and that i will never be able to make it better again. I then started to think about my Grandma. I started thinking if i move, i will be leaving everything about her, in this house. and i couldn't possibly do that. Like all of these emotions started to take over and i began to cry and cry. i cried on Billy's shoulder for quite sometime trying to make sense of what i just heard. But in my mind, it didn't make sense and it was stupid because this was my house. In reality, it wasn't.

When my Grandma passed away 6 years ago, i began to feel her around me and even in the house I'm in now. It was pretty cool. some people might not think so, but i do. its pretty awesome! LOL! Well, a while back, we had found out that we have to move eventually but we never had to move then because the house didn't sell so we were able to stay here longer. Well, when we found out about us moving last year, i no longer felt my Grandma in the house. It was like her spirit disappeared. I don't know why and i don't how. it just did. As i got over my depressed mood about moving i suddenly started thinking why my Grandma's spirit was no longer in the house. It was because she knew we weren't going to be in this house forever. She knew that we were going to be moving soon so she left. I started thinking that maybe shes waiting for us to get this new house so her spirit could be with us again. Just had to share this!

Anyways, with all of this moving junk, is stress. I have been so stressed about everything its not even funny! I don't know why. i guess maybe I'm one of those people i hate waiting around, id rather get things done so i don't have to worry about it later on. But the other 2 people that i live with aren't like that. So it makes it very very hard and STRESSFULL! Among all of this stress is bickering and arguing and even fighting. Nothing physical. but still fighting. Its insane. I feel badd about arguing with my boyfriend and grandfather but I'm just stressed.  i cant help it! At the same time though, i should totally know how to control myself and my stress and my anger so things don't get out of hand and then in the long run, hurting anyone feelings. Especially since i just did a blog on acting on your feelings and saying things you don't mean just because your mad. I guess I'm just so excited about moving now and I'm anxious to start decorating and planning and all kinds of things. That i just forget about reality and that this stuff takes time and patience. And those are 2 things i cannot stand! LOL!

Everything is happening so fast. I didn't think billy and i would ever find a house this quick and be moving into a house this quick. its all surreal. The plan of this house is a rent to own type of basis. We will be paying rent for the next three years. But some of the rent is getting taken out and put towards the down payment on the house for when the 3 years is up. That is the day either billy signs to buy or both of us signs to buy. But i honestly see the house as ours already. Even if we are just renting at that moment after we move in because we aren't going anywhere for quite sometime, so yeah. Thinking about it the other day just really bought tears to my eyes because we have been dreaming of this day for so long. We at the moment thought it was never going to happen. Like at one point, i hate to admit it, but, we just gave up hope. I did at first, but i secretly kept in contact with God. I never strayed him. I always talked to him in prayer and asked him when the time is right, could he please help us. And he eventually did. i know we don't go to church every Sunday or Wednesday  but we do honestly believe in him and trust in him with our life. Not having a vehicle makes it hard to go to church everyday or every Sunday. but you best to believe we are going in the near future right after we move in and get settled in and then buy a vehicle. We are going back to church. We miss. I miss it a lot. Its like a emptiness that i cant fill. So i definitely know that its because i don't go to church. Everything is starting to fall into place in our lives and i cannot wait until God gives us more of what we need in our life. We are truly grateful to him that this is all happening. Our 5th year anniversary will be celebrated in our new house! I am so excited!

Never steer fast of your dreams. You can accomplish anything if you put your mind to it! Never give up hope and keep believing in yourself. && never ever, give up on the Lord. Always always, trust in him. You may not see an outcome right away, but just keep praying to him and trusting in him with your life and good things will come.

"Good things come to those who wait"

The simple life.. gotta love it!

My weekend. My weekend was pretty awesome. I didn't do a thing but it was great. Friday night was pretty chill. My honey and i watched a few movies and then went to bed. Nothing special. But thats what i love actually. just the time together. Im not a hard person to please. Im that kind of girl you loves to stay home and watch movies with my honey, than going out and partying until the we hours in the morning. I guess thats why he loves me so much and why he and i get along so well. Friday was also pretty cool because it finally snowed and we actually had snow on the ground! So i was able to make Snow cream! Which turned out awesome! it was so good! Saturday, the bestie and i went out for brunch. It was really nice. I kinda feel bad everytime we go out shes always paying. But when she wants to go out i never have the money. But i got her next time. We're going to her favorite place and im buying. i dont care what she says! LOL! Its so nice to have someone like that in your life who doesnt care if you cant pay sometimes when you guys do lunch. Its an awesome feeling. I love the times her and i share together because we hardly ever see each other like we use to. but you would never know that if you saw us together. Its crazy how friendship works! Saturday night, i finally got my chinese fix! I love chinese food! Its so good and so addicting! Our new favorite place to eat is teppanyaki buffet! There food is so good! we came home and watched 2 movies, then went to bed. yesterday, was pretty chill. I slept most of the day. I love sleep! sleep is like the greatest thing ever! love it! Then watched my shows and got caught up with them so i can watch the brand new episodes this week! I made dinner and it was freaking awesome! I made biscuits and gravy! i havent had that in while except for saturday when i went out with the bestie! LOL! Anyways, it turned out really good. So thats pretty much my weekend. Nothing exciting but i dont care. i love it regardless and wouldnt trade it for anyone elses weekend.

Sometimes not having money is a good thing because it shows you what you can do without it and that you dont really need it to be happy or make someone happy! <3

Healthy && Future changes for the body

Losing weight && eating healthy.. Worst words EVER! LOL!

Today, as I'm sitting here at the computer and the clock reads 12:08, i was thinking about what i was going to write about. I first thought, i don't have nothing to write about. Then i said, yes you do. Yesterday in my Edu 235 class(which happens to be a food and nutrition class) i realized that i need to start eating healthy again. I did last year in the summer and i felt awesome, amazing, and just really happy about myself. Now, right now, i feel like a tub of lard. I swear! I'm not even joking. I want to know though, why is it so hard for us to eat healthy? Is it because we're lazy and we "have a busy life that we need to cook meals that are easy and fast" or is it because with all honesty that healthy foods are WAY TOO EXPENSIVE? Actually healthy foods are quite expensive but in my opinion its worth the cost. Especially if its going be beneficial to you in the long run. Eating healthy is hard, like really hard. Especially if your totally use to eating junk food ALL OF THE TIME. With that said though, you honestly just have to take it a day at a time. But that's hard to remember considering you want to see results right then and there. LOL! I'm totally guilty of that last year when i started eating healthy and exercising.

Last year was sort of rough for me. I had finally gotten a normal check-up appointment with a doctor to see if i was still okay and everything was okay. The doctor told me something so scary i will never forget. She told me that i was on the boarder of being someone with high blood pressure. at the time, that was so scary to hear because you think that your healthy and that nothing is wrong you. So to hear that, i was terrified. But she reassured me that it was okay and that i was going to be alright i just had to start watching what i ate. Especially foods with high sodium or even foods with sodium period. Well, that's when i started exercising everyday and watching what i ate everyday. Looking back at last year i was actually very happy and pleased with myself. I loved myself. I felt better inside and out. I miss that. Like really miss that. But i just honestly don't have any motivation to want to work out or anything. I know that's bad. :( but i cant help it. I guess if i had someone to work out with, it would be okay but everyone that i know is busy and has a life and has to work. I, however, don't work. So wanting to exercise should be something that i would enjoy doing. LOL! but its not. When i feel like this, i in all honesty, feel a total and complete failure. I feel like its because I'm so fat that i don't want to help myself be better. I start getting in this depressed moods and cant really get out of them. Losing weight though, means everything to me like college and graduating college means to me. I don't know why but it does. What do i do? Do i continue on the path that I'm going or do i sit down and have a conversation with myself and tell myself what I'm doing to do and i better do it like or not! LOL! (i really cannot believe i just said that statement)

Over the next couple of months, i think i will start changing my lifestyle and start being a new healthier person and a more non-lazy person. I guess maybe i should blame in on the weather and the fact that its still winter and of course the holidays! LOL! Excuses, excuses, excuses, i know! I tried! LOL! I guess maybe ill let my blog help me out and set myself some goals for myself and just take each one, one day at time. I need to remember that Rome was not built in a day. It took time to built something so marvelous and beautiful. :) I guess in the end though, regardless of whats going on in my life and what i look like, i should still love myself for who i am. I was born this way baby! --Yes i just stole Lady Gaga's line! LOL! I totally had to take that though, it fit perfect! :D

As i wrap this up, what i learned today in class and right now is, its okay that your not perfect and like everyone else, that is what makes you unique. To love yourself for who you are is what matters most at the end of the day because who is going to love you if you don't love yourself? (short blog this time. ill make up for it on my next blog) :)

Friends beyond the outer shell... The raw, hard truth

Friends... What is the meaning of a Friend? Why do they mean so much to us? Well, according to the Internet a friend is someone whom one knows, likes, and trusts. That's pretty simple, right?!? Well, in my opinion, a friend is someone you confide in, who is always there for you no matter what, who likes you for EXACTLY who you are and loves you for just that end of story. A friend is someone who you can not talk to for a while but the second you contact each other it was like you just seen them yesterday. A friend is someone who doesn't take you for granted and knows how important you are to them even if your poor, ugly, fat, skinny, loud, emotionally attached to your boyfriend, & so in love it's pathetic but they don't care. A friend is someone who knows yours and their situation and doesn't think you have to buy their affection, they are just there in your life because they love you and love spending time with you. That to me is a friend. And what makes those qualities fantastic is that, that friend then becomes your best friend because they know SO MUCH about you that it gives you chills every time you're with them but you just smile because it's the coolest thing you could ever feel other than love for your significant other and the Lord!

Over the years i have learned SO MUCH about friends and best friends. Of course, like always i had to learn the hard way about both. I had to literally crash and burn on my face. I had cry countless tears and hit this dark, depressing part in my body and my mind. It was terrifying looking back at it all now. i don't even know who that was. I would say this situation started in 5th Grade and progressed all through high school, and then ended right now while I'm in college. That's a long time for someone to go through things like that, being continuous and more dark and depressing. Looking back i have no idea how the heck i got through it all. It must have been the Lord. even though my boyfriend was there to give me advice and give me a shoulder to cry on. I just believe it was the Lord. he was clearly the one to give me strength to continue and make it out alive. Yes, it was THAT bad. Well, among all of that craziness, i managed to figure out why each and every friend at the those particular times meant so much to me. It was because I'm such a sensitive person and back then i let people(my friends), say and do things to me because i thought it was okay. I learned that friends mean so much to us because they are there for us and they listen to us. They let us vent about things that our family and partners don't care to hear sometimes. Those things are priceless. Those qualities mean so much to us that we would do anything to keep friends that aren't right for us just because of those qualities. Which is great, right?!? No. After a while you start to see that they have all of these wonderful qualities but their actions and their love for you isn't right for you. Their love is fake. Their kindness is fake. Its not real. It was all a dream or some sort of book you read that was never published. Its so crazy how our mind and heart works when we love. Even if it's loving a friend. It doesn't matter love is love. and when we love sometimes we don't even see straight. honestly that is a bad sign. that's when you know something is wrong and something needs to change.

I had a few friends that put me through every single thing I've mentioned. I wont name names, not because I'm scared of what they might say or do. I could honestly care less because the truth is the truth regardless of how it is said or written. It was very hard for me those years. Looking back i wondered why God put me through those situations. I wondered why he let me get so far gone in my darkness and let me be someone totally different than who i really was. At times, before i found the Lord, i wondered if he just didn't care. But when i found the Lord, and FINALLY got baptised with billy, it finally hit me why this major stepping stone happened. It happened because i needed to see for myself, i needed to learn how to handle situations like this on my own. He wanted if i really trusted in him and believed in him so much that i knew, just knew, that everything was going to be okay. He wanted this to happen so i could grow to be a better person inside and outside. He wanted be to become stronger inside and outside and be proud of myself. He wanted me to be able to find people that excepted my strong quality and be proud of me too! He showed me that things in my life happen for a reason and for a reason we cant understand but that's okay because sometimes in life you don't need to understand, you just need to trust, believe, and love. That's it. How easy and simple, right!! LOL. After realizing this new wonderful stepping stone i finally went to the one and true best friend i had and still have. I told her how much i loved her, how much she meant to me, how much i appreciate her being there for me through thick and thin. I told her that I'm sorry i let the last friend i had control how i thought about her and that it would never ever happen again. I told her that i was thankful that she didn't let money get in the way of our friendship. And no I'm not dissing those friends of mine who i talked to everyday or try to talk everyday, and the ones that take me here and take me there, and just do things for me that i am truly grateful for! i love you guys too and i appreciate you guys too! But the best friend is there through my highs, my lows, and my inbetweens! LOL!

The last friend i lost will be the last friend i let change me or who i am. When i ended the relationship last year i thought i did a horrible thing. I thought maybe just maybe i did a horrible thing and thought about calling her and telling how sorry i was. Then i thought why would i do that. When someone is the way they are, they aren't going to change. You cant change someone. They are who they are. I ended our friendship because i felt like our friendship was based on money, greed, lies, and jealousy. Why keep a friendship that has all the wrong things as its base?!? Yes i did say i was going to buy her things for us to dress up on Halloween. I did because i love shopping and i love when i know I'm going to be getting money. Especially more than 100 dollars. My mind goes a little crazy and then i cant control my mouth and i start saying what i need and want. That's why i have a loving partner to kind of bring me back to cloud 9 and say hey, those things you want are just too expensive for us to buy and gives me another idea as to what to buy or do, etc! I was told i was a liar about all of that because i happened to go with my mother and the man that my mom married to a haunted attraction. Yes i spent money! Yes it was kinda pricey but I did not pay for it out of my pocket. My boyfriend did! It was his treat to me for Halloween because he knows how much i LOVE Halloween! My mother and her husband did also help pitch in! at the time, my moms husband was generous! Ha, that didn't last long did it?!? LOL! Anyways, i was called a liar. But i wasn't told this on the phone or in person. Like everything that happens, it just so happens i was told this on facebook! It was her status! No offense but how childish! She's older than me just to let you guys know. Then after that, i was told on the phone. When i was told that i was liar about everything that was said. I immediately felt hurt and angry. our friendship immediately came to my mind and it hit me that our friendship is based on money and bought friendship. So i ended it. plain and simple. Nothing fancy or sugar coated. Honestly, now, right now, i feel like a better person. I'm happier and i can finally be myself and not feel i have to compete for someone to like me and accept me when they really and truly don't. I can finally stop feeling self conscious about who might be talking about me behind my back. A good stanza from the song "Through Glass" by Stone Sour that goes with this tragic friendship is:
"How much is real? So much to question
An epidemic of the mannequins, contaminating everything
We thought came from the heart
But never did right from the start
Just listen to the noises
(Null and void instead of voices)"

Friends, they come and go, but the ones that stay and leave a footprint on your heart that you cant forget or replace, those are the ones that matter and the ones that are going to be there forever! Choose your friends wisely. Always and always listen to your heart and the Lord. They both together, know best. Friends and best friends, at the end of the day, are truly God's gifts from heaven! My best friend and my few friends sure are! :)